-crymeariver

2007-06-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

band outing was fun. besides the fact that i got sun burnt literally and i was down with bad bad flu and a very sore throat afterwards.

sometimes it's really tiring reliving all these sweet but painful memories here.

440th post and im gone-

to somewhere else.

2007-06-11T00:58:00.000+08:00

tmr's band outing.

yet im not at all happy.

cause i just found out that today was the last day i'll be seeing ________.
and i sort of didnt realise.

god. how dumb can i get.

2007-06-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

Warning: image heavy

pictures from east coast:

NYCB!

zhang qianwen(slug), jo lee xin and yeo kexin(dodo)! jo and kexin dont look like they're going to the beach please. jo looks like she's going for some class outing at some bbq and kexin's going shoppingg. o.O

kexin, qianwen and jo trying to be washed away by the waves.

kexin and qian!

the trio again. :/ without the blazing sun.the ....................not-so-pretty beach. :/

qianwen er. washing her feet in the waves?

jo trying to do the same. haha.

us going back to the benches.

amazingly the loudhailer slug is camera-shy. omg im so amazed. haha!

yeo kexin! and her weird expression.

back the benches. qianwen's being camera shy againnn.

haha yes! finally caught qianwen's face. (:

and i found this at bedok bus interchange! (:

Temasek Junior College! (TJC) it's in the east! it's so freaking farrr from here. ayeee.

others:

this is soooooo cool please!

cool right! found at outside raffles city/ city hall mrt station a month ago. :/

melanie and nut! I MISS NUTTT. ):

went for car wash today. didnt get to wash cars though. once only. cause there were too many volunteers. went to promote the children's cancer foundation products to people.

pea chong is pro please. she was washing the cars and at the end of the session, the guy had an eye on her. wth lah. then when we went off, the guy was like "hey girl! where are you going?"

pea: "going to see my boyfriend!"

and when we reached the busstop, the guy actually followed us. :/ pea was damn scared please. -.- but in the end he just walked past. -.- wthhhhhh.

went to wistma to change then went to chinatown to do survey with lydia yinhwee and jieqi. we walked around looking for foreigners to do surveys. and we found out that alot of dutch, australian, british and japanese like to come to singapore! jieqi is so pro please. whenever we met japanese tourist, she was like speaking fluent japanese to them all the way. O.O pro-ness. and our lifesaver. haha! (:

met some other people from italian, brazil, USA, germany, etc. yinhwee, lydia and jieqi were all like "so we go and ask? but i dont dare to ask!" and in the end i had to go lah. haha. but it was fun.

pea saw cute guys at the car wash, we saw cute guys at chinatown. and they're from brazil! (: and the 3 of them still dont dare to ask! :/ so weird.

walked all the way to maxwell food center, then yinhwee's mum gave us a ride to newton circus. her brother is so freaking cute please!!! oh man. he's so hilarious lah. and he's only 3-4. he kept playing a slow weird chinese song on the car and forcing his mum to wear the gloves while she was driving! oh man. hilarious.

we going to survey on another NIGHT! so fun! (:

and yet tmr's the day. isnt it? can i face it?

2007-06-09T00:39:00.000+08:00

it's the 4th time this holiday that i feel asleep on the bus and needed someone else to wake me up when the bus reached the interchange.

embarrassing.

been really really busy these few days to the extend where it's been almost a few times where i almost broke down or lost control.

i need to breathe.

band has been my one and only source of entertainment. and it eats up the most of my time.

and browsing the blogs, i realised how much of the outside world i've been missing out.

i realised i really miss people like NUT (yufei!) and LIUYI and SOK and reading their blogs makes me miss them even more.

kexin/qianwen/ jasmine! dont worry. i still love you guys! (:
mian jun too. you've been such a wonderful junior. <3

it's amazing how we take the people around us, near or far, for granted. sometimes it's to the extend where they're really not there. yet it's only when their really gone that we start to miss them, and still to feel despair.

the point is: tmr's another busy day and the day after tmr is sunday.

sunday is the day where i go for jason's.

sunday is the day where i get to see some people.

and there's only 2 more sundays left. or maybe only 1.

and the thing is: i dont know whether to hold on.
maybe i should just get over it and move on.
maybe it's really not worth it.
maybe i should just forget about this whole thing.
maybe i shouldnt even think about this.

maybe im wrong.

LIUYI~~~. ): im so sorry im always bothering you but you're the only one who knows what's happening.

but this time im really lost. what should i do?

2007-06-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

went down to school for BIO SIA in the morning. only kitkuan and i were there? hurhur. ended up scaring ourselves silly with the book of unsolved mysteries. URGHH. ok i think it was only me. :/

then went to lunch at KAP and then met qianwen at the busstop opposite kap. waliao. talk to me over the phone like she saw a ghost and made me rush all the way but end up she was just being very angsty cause yeo kexin was still at home when it was already after 1. and we were supposed to meet at 2. jo lee xin is the best lah. she was already at bedok mrt station when qian and i were still at kap. :/ and jo made the both of us cab down to bedok mrt.

qianwen you still owe me 1.30. quick im broke!

reached bedok mrt and jo went missing. she turned up at the wrong busstop. -.- no sense of direction please! haha. then we waited damn long for kexin and gave up halfway, going to the interchange first. tried asking alot of people how to get to east coast cause val was like "eh walk all the way to the end and there's a shuttle bus to east coast." where the hell is THE END? -.- felt damn loser please. and i was carrying 4 freaking heavy books from the school library to east coast. so smart lah.

finally found the correct bus, then we went up to the bus uncle to tell us when we should alight. in the end he didnt. -.- and we missed our stop. finally alighted and we walked to east coast. qianwen was AGAIN the slowest and she was like complaining like mad lah. haha.

reached east coast and we settled down at the food center cause ZHANG QIANWEN THE SLUG needed food. -.- omgg. but we were dying already so might as well die at the food center. haha. i ended up eating the lemons from their drinks please. and jo was the only one trying to sort out the stations cause qianwen's busy complaining to me about how kexin is like so late and calling kexin while i was just being baked by the heat and was dying under the weight of the heavy books lah.

for more details please refer to qianwen's blog. it's freaking hilarious.

kexin finally came, like FINALLY. after jo finished sorting out the stations and we were like "oh yay she's here! let's go." and kexin's look was priceless.

and we kept stealing kexin's lunch. haha. burger king! (:

so the FOUR OF US went to rackee the east coast. only the four of us. and i like my station. BUT I FORGOT ONE THING. must discuss tmr.

we finished the station allocating and the clues. omg i think they're so going to die please. cause the four of us are evil people. haha.

finally found a place to sit down and do a fake trail of the games. qianwen was like going to die if she didnt have an ice cream anytime soon so we went to buy ice cream. then we sat down to discuss the scoring system. omg damn hilarious lah. we were like trying some of the games out and we were already dying please! jo and i were like trying everything out and qianwen and kexin were like "ermmmm are you sure you want to do this? ok fine! " haha. shhh cannot say!

after finishing the scoring system, we went down to the beach to play! so fun! (: we attempted trying to write NYCB <3 in the sand but the waves kept washing it away! and we saw this small little boy digging a hole, and the hole was like deeper than he himself! like omg how is he going to climb out lah. O.O

took some photos. cant upload now. maybe another time. :/

oh oh! jo and i met a weird uncle. seriously weird. O.O haha!

kexin's dad fetched us to bedok mrt and qianwen and i took mrt home. i almost died please.

now i know where's TEMASEK JC! (:
shhh liuyi! i knowyou know. but i dont know whato to do. ):

i love this.

i love the dance. seriously.

2007-06-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

my heart is melting. (:

ISWAK is so sweet! im watching it again and again.
and im addicted to episode 17. so hilarious! haha.

and yu shu is so freaking cute! haha. with jason, zi yu, ah jin, xiang qin and ZHI SHU!!!

oh man oh man. liuyi you better come and save me. im drowning myself in self denial again! :/

oh man oh man! xiang qin so freaking hilarious please.

im dying of laughter. haha. omg the part where xiang qin kicked zhi shu into the mirror while they were sleeping was so freaking hilarious lah! haha.

awww zhi shu's so cool please. and xiang qin's plain hilarious. watch till the end! so hilarious.

qianwen ever asked why do i want to walk down this road.

and i realised-to make my own happy ending.

2007-06-01T21:49:00.000+08:00

说你爱我-S.H.E.

下着雨让尘气稀释回忆
我靠着你不出声音
看着你看着斑驳的甜蜜爱你
困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口隐隐作痛
你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口也让我精神腐朽

说你爱我变成一种问候
不如趁早放手把爱坠落让满地鲜红
说你爱我变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后我承担不起你的承诺

下着雨让尘气稀释回忆
我靠着你不出声音
看着你看着斑驳的甜蜜
爱你困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口隐隐作痛
你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口也让我精神腐朽

说你爱我变成一种问候
不如趁早放手把爱坠落让满地鲜红
说你爱我变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后我承担不起你的承诺

说你爱我变成一种问候
不如趁早放手把爱坠落让满地鲜红
说你爱我变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后我承担不起你的承诺

说你爱我变成一种问候
不如趁早放手把爱坠落让满地鲜红
说你爱我变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后我承担不起你的承诺

好久没有这样哭了。但这次我也没哭个痛快，现在心里也很闷的。

为什么？为什么生活就是这样的呢? 为什么周围的人都有两个面子，两个面孔，两个个性, 想要偏好周围的人，让他们个个上当才高兴。

all the world's a stage, and the people in it merely players.

but is there a need to act to the extend where you lost your own true self?

yet. i myself have split personalities.
the high, mad, over-enthu girl when im in band-
and the emo, troubled, depressed, loner girl when im not.

tag replies:
yihui: haha and i was so amused by the thing she recited to me please! and what what! what talking you! i also only have dlss guy contacts ok. ermm maybe plus some others lah but still! 2 or 3 only! :/ i want to sign up but i cant...
liuyi: ayee same here.
junqi: haha not like you at all! :/
peisan: oops! sorry melanie PHAY. haha. =x
qianwen: urghhh qianwennn im dying. i dont eveer think i've got the time to go and watch pirates.
cheryl: eh! which cheryl are you! haha. =x
hansheng: er. wow? :/
jiaying: ehhh! sorry lah! ):
. : yea thanks. who's this? :/

2007-06-01T00:53:00.000+08:00

urgh

urgh urgh urgh.

im such a freaking loser.

i just screwed up for wenqi AGAIN. ): urgh i cant stand myself.
guess i was just so caught up with band outing's proposal that i forgot everything about the photoshoot.

im really really really sorry wenqi. ): for screwing up your life again and AGAIN. ):

went to jurong library with han sheng yesterday to study. saw joel kek and bing wei on the way there.

felt abit awkward cause we were like trying to find places to sit down and do our stuffs when actually there wasnt alot of spaces. it was very crowded. packed with alot of nanhua people. :/

finally found a place to settle down at the top level and did homework from 3-6. i think it was more of me asking him how to do stuffs and distracting him with talks and gossips of anything under the sun. haha. so weird. :/ and sorry for disturbing! =x

but anyhow, it was quite ok. and i manage to finish quite a bit. NOTE: A BIT. hurhur. but still! better than none! (:

and thanks for everything han sheng! (:

planned to go out with my family today. but it rained and we ended up stoning. liuyi and i talked about stuffs which sort of reminded me of the state im in now. ): LIUYI! i should probably give up lah. it's all my wishful thinking anyway. :/ and thanks for being there for me! (:

and I FELL IN LOVE AGAIN!!

WITH JOE CHENG. haha!

watching ISWAK made me fall in love with him again! it's just so sweet and heartening to see him act as coolio jiang zhi shu with an IQ of 200 waiting for xiang qin to chase after him. omg. HEARTTHROBBB.<3 haha! (:

joe cheng so shuai! and if only dramas were real.
*if only i had the guts of xiang qin. urghhh.*

2007-05-29T20:40:00.000+08:00

i finished watching 热情仲夏，蔷薇之恋 and will soon be finishing 终极一班

so long right? aye. im slow.

but 热情仲夏 made me fall in love with joe cheng all over again! -heartthrob<3-

LOVE LOVE LOVE. haha. SHUAI! <3

ANYWAY. went for band today. had SMO in the morning though. uber rubbish. i couldnt even done half of it. major screw up.

then went for band. was suanning jasmine tan like hell lah. our section (which only includes me mian jun and jasmine. god PATHETIC.) went siao in the morning and we were suanning each other at the top of our lungs haha. so dumb!

then jasmine was uber hungry and she wanted to go poolside. i didnt want to the only 3 loser nanyang girls from band to go to poolside so i argued with her to go kap. she refuesed lah. saying that kap is disgusting and unhealthy! then in the end i reluctantly followed her to thai noodle house! thought we were going to be the only 3 loser nanyang band girls over there when we saw horns coming up! haha. and we were saved.

thai noodle house scraped tom yam noodle off the student price list! im sad!!! ):

went to coro to get my PE shirt then went back to school. ms chong took pirates dreams! and!!!!

koped from qianwen's blog:

then had a very =.= convo with siewying and kexin, thru mouthing words and hand signals :D

siewying: after band go kap? (she repeated this 4 times before i finally realised what she was saying)

me: OKAY. :D

*chong starts playing some bar in pirates dream.

kexin: eh from where?

me: here lah. *points to band room.

*cue: burst out in silent laughter.

if you don't get it,NEVERMIND,cause only mad ppl can comprehend it. :D

my god. i saw qianwen's face go red with laughter and i almoist died of laughter. godd.

had games commitee meeting after band. which included only qianwen kexin jo guanteng and i from the games committee. pathetic please! but we managed to come up with some decent games! (:

after that went KAP with qianwen. talked about some dumb stuffs. she was like "complaining" to me about her life and i was like "complaining" to her about mine. but not before we went to get food!!!! haha! omg im influenced by her liao lah. turning into a pig- literally. then we SURVEYED the whole KAP before cautiously sitting down to have a good meal+ chat. haha! must be cautious! (:

ayee im dying from homework overload. SOMEONE GO OUT AND STUDY WITH ME! (:

im still mad about joe cheng. (:

2007-05-28T17:39:00.000+08:00

mood: heavy rock.

yesterday was damn hilarious.

went late for jason's cause some stuff popped up before it. and just when i entered he started to ask me for love messages for his future wife.

like hello? do i look like that type?!

anyway he was asking the whole center to "donate" some love messages to him. :/ poor sheena smsed him 4 and she was damn frustrated with the connection cause she smsed him all 4 and he received none when they were like sitting next to each other?

sheena: ehhh you got receive my messages or not?
jason: you where got send me any message?!
sheena: gott! i just send you 4! dont tell me you received none?!
jason: i never receive anything! you dont come and bluff me lorh!
sheena: i got send you!!!! wait i send again. :/

few minutes later.

sheena: eh got receive or not.
jason: receive what?
sheena: my messages!!!!
jason: dont have!!!!
sheena: huh why your phone so lousy! so long liao!
jason: ooi! my phone is N80 one ok!!! lousy?!
sheena: then why you never receive any message?!
jason: how i know! YOUR phone lousy lah!
benjamin: -takes jason's phone- EH! no wonder lah. HERE NO RECEPTION!!!!

omg. the whole room died laughing please.

then jason continued to ask margaret and i for more (cause we're like the only girls there. LIKE GUYS DONT HAVE MEH. -.- ) and margaret was like "no no i dont have. actually i have but i dont want to give you! =p" and i was like "wth I DONT HAVE AT ALL LAH." -.- and i resorted to sms-ing qianwen and asking her for some but from her response i think she must think im seriously mad so i gave up.

then we resulted in asking jason to create his own. :/ after sheena left, jason's phone rang.

jason: HUH! sheena's messages now then come in?!?! O.O

and that's like more than half and hour later. -.- god.

today's the first day of the holidays AND I SLACKED MY LIFE AWAY. hurhur. there's still a million things to do. but seriously i dont care. =x i want to go out and playyyyyyy.

i seriously need to get a life. :/

im so bored im resorting to doing these type of stuffs:

koped from qianwen's blog.

ARE YOU A DA JIEJIE OR XIAO MEIMEI? xD

START : WHICH TYPE OF CLOTHES DO YOU NORMALLY WEAR?
A. romantic and cute, dress or western style. [START FROM Q1]
B. relaxed, fitting shorts [START FROM Q2]
C. cool and shuai, jeans [START FROM Q3]
D. hot mini skirt [START FROM Q4]

Q1. WHICH OF THESE TWO SENTENCES WILL MAKE YOU FEEL VERY HAPPY IF A GUY PRAISES YOU WITH IT?
A. "you are very beautiful!" [GO TO Q5]
B. "why are you so cute ah? " [GO TO Q6]

Q2. HAVE YOU EVER TAKEN UP ANY POSITIONS IN YOUR CLASS?
A. yes, or more than once. [GO TO Q5]
B. no. [GO TO Q7]

Q3. IF YOU HAVE A CRUSH, YOUR ACTIONS WOULD MOST LIKELY BE...
A. go up to him and tell him[GO TO Q6]
B. quietly wait for him to tell you he likes you[GO TO Q8]

Q4. IN YOUR IMAGINATIONS, YOUR LIFE AFTER MARRIAGE WOULD BE...
A. housewife, take care to needs of family[GO TO Q8]
B. career woman, juggle between family and work[GO TO Q7]

Q5. IF YOU WANT TO BUY SOMETHING THAT YOU EYED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
A. hint to parents and try to be very guai, hoping they would buy it for you[GO TO Q10]
B. save up and buy [GO TO Q9]

Q6. WHEN YOU HAVE PROBLEMS, YOU...
A. find a friend or family member to complain to[GO TO Q11]
B. bottle up, keep to urself, hoping you would work it out yourself[GO TO Q9]

Q7. WHEN YOU HAVE A HEATED ARGUMENT WITH A FRIEND, THE SITUATION WOULD NORMALLY BE...
A. you would be the first to drop tears[GO TO Q10]
B. scream and insist your way and reasonings, you are not wrong after all.[GO TO Q12]

Q8. WHEN YOU GO OUT WITH YOUR FRIEND, YOU ARE NORMALLY...
A. late and have to ask ur friends to wait for you[GO TO Q12]
B. early or most of the time on time[GO TO Q11]

Q9. WHAT WOULD YOU NORMALLY DO WHEN YOU SEE A SCENE THAT IS TOUCHING WHEN WATCHING TV SERIALS OR MOVIES?
A. cry very easily and show your feelings[GO TO Q14]
B. bear with the urge and try not to present your feelings[GO TO Q13]

Q10. WHEN YOU ARE TAKING PICTURES WITH FRIENDS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX, YOU NORMALLY...
A. stand very close to them[GO TO Q15]
B. stand very far away[GO TO Q13]

Q11. WHEN YOU HAVE TO SAY A LIE, YOU NORMALLY ...
A. think of a good lie, then say it without any hitch[GO TO Q15]
B. make others suspicious because u stutter, afraid that you might be found out.[GO TO Q14]

Q12. THERE IS A TYPHOON AND YOU ARE ALONE AT HOME. SUDDENLY, THERE'S A BLACKOUT, YOU WOULD...
A. be calm, find a candle or torch and patiently wait for the electricity to recover.[GO TO Q15]
B. be frantic, think of scary things and scare yourself. [GO TO Q16]

Q13. SOMEONE YOU DISLIKE ASKS A FAVOUR OF YOU, YOU WOULD...
A. still help him if its in your ability[YOU ARE A TYPE]
B. reject, why should you help when you dislike him?[YOU ARE B TYPE]

Q14. YOUR HABIT WITH YOUR STATIONERIES..
A. although its old and you've been using it for very long, you cant bear to throw it. [YOU ARE B TYPE]
B. replace it the moment you have something new and interesing. [YOU ARE TYPE C]

Q15. WHEN YOU HAVE TO DO WORK YOU LIKE AND WORK YOU DISLIKE, YOU WOULD...
A. finish the work you dislike first, then do the ones you like happily. [YOU ARE TYPE C]
B. finish the work you like first, then drag and slowly do the ones you dislike. [YOU ARE TYPE D]

Q16. THE STYLE AND COLOUR TYPES OF YOUR ROOM.
A. clearly of a certain style and theme, eg.cuteness or romantic styles. [YOU ARE TYPE E]
B. have different styles and themes, a mixture, looks messy. [YOU ARE TYPE D]

ANSWERS

TYPE A
-Example: MakikoEsumi
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: *****
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:*
You belong to the type that cannot bear to see others suffer. In the eyes of others, you are a respectable jiejie-like person. No matter boy or girl, both respect you and trust you a lot. You are very generous, and do not like to argue, thus is quite lovable by others.
YOUR PRINCE: Guys who goes out with you normally need to have the same passion as you, because only when he becomes a hero like you, your relationship will become more strong.

TYPE B
-Example: Nanako Matsushima
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: ****
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:**
Guys are most attracted to your fresh and smart da jiejie attitude. It allows guys to more easily present themselves to you in a truthful manner, and not try to cover up their shortcomings.
YOUR PRINCE: Guys who sometimes present their weak self would definitely need a girlfriend like you! Normally, once those guys meet you, they will uncontrollably be deeply attracted to you.

TYPE C
-Example: Ella
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: ***
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:***
You like to build relationships with the guys, so that you can do what he can do, and not deeply rely on him just because you are a girl. Your independent character reveals a strong sense of confidence and charm. This is also what attracts them to you.
YOUR PRINCE: Your relationship with your boyfriend normally starts from friends. you treat each other like brothers, can do a lot of things together and get along well. Under these circumstances, you slowly become a pair of lovers in the eyes of others.

TYPE D
-Example: Moon Geun Young
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: **
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:****
You normally present a truthful self to your friends, not like some who do not speak truefully from the heart. Your gentle and kind self causes a guy to be touched and makes him wants to protect you uncontrollably.
YOUR PRINCE: Guys with sensible minds suits you the best. Your relationship is stable, gentle and boring. Although it is not as passionate, always remember that a stable relationship can always last long.

TYPE E
-Example: Rainie Yang
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: *
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:*****
You are quite pure and innocent and presents your moods on your face, without hiding. You need a lot of people's guidance and protection, you like to "sa jiao" Sometimes, you would seem unreasonable, but most of the time, you are innocent and lovable by others.
YOUR PRINCE: Guys with hero-like qualities suit you the best. He likes to protect and take care of others, thus both of you can fit perfectly!

EHHHH. who is that?! and it's not what i think i am leh. :/ am i that da jie jie? o.O

2007-05-26T01:07:00.000+08:00

hectic day. im dead tired.

i passed 2.4. but barely. ran with liuyi. i feel so hopeless in running lah please! liuyi's sick and yet she ran like half a minute faster than me please! oh my god i should just go and dig a hole in the ground and hide myself.

was damn tired after 2.4 but we had to ban1 all the instruments to boarding for the evening recital. i almost died please. and we had to move the drumset all the way to boarding school. urgh. damn tiring. but we still managed with much help from tan kuo cheang. he's like super strong please! he carried the bass drum like it was nothing lah. oh my.

basically we just went to the function room to run through the whole programme. the movements and stuff. then went for a break. god my fingers almost died.

went for a break where almost all the band people in chamber music were suanning janabel from head to toe for being to llama-ish. haha. then we went for lunch then came back for practice with dr macorome. my god he so damn freakingly pro i cant stand him! haha no lah. he's so nice and he's so pro. i feel so demoralised when i play the bass next to him lah. :/ touched up on alot of stuffs. note ALOT. cause we were like falling apart? :/ practiced trade fours and body language with us. (: and taught me how to mic the bass. haha oh man i love him. we would really have died without him lah.

ban1 the drumset and bass back to school for band prac. i rested cause MY FOURTH FINGER FINALLY DIED ON ME by bursting the bloody blister and breaking my skin. :/ (alliteration! HAHA. ) felt damn pissed with myself afterwards and went around asking for a freaking pathetic plaster for my finger. (alliteration again! god wth is wrong with me? ) then jasmine, mien jun and i took turns to play since we only had 2 basses. i think i rested the most :/ cause whenever there was pizzicato i was like "oh my god IM SO NOT GOING TO PLAY." haha. =x anyway we played really nice songs like aladin, the eighties, disney, shrek dance party! and many many other nice medleys. (:

got dismissed at 5 from band and we went for a "chamber music-band+suyun and ruimin" dinner at KAP. haha. ate with suyun, kexin and ziyan as usual. went back early to move instruments AGAIN to the boarding school. practiced abit more and this time, the blisters on my second finger burst. so great lah. -.-

then had to stop practicing cause concert was starting and janabel kept reminding guanteng to pitch properly. ermps! we were starting to get worried cause 15 minutes to the concert there was barely an sudience. MELANIE FAYE was our first regconised audience haha! (: then donglu, cynthia, sabrina, jiaying, qianwen, quinza and MS CHONG came. omg when ms chong came i died of shock lah. and the brass groups screamed in shock when they saw ms chong walk in please. omg classic. haha.

we finally got a decent amount of audience and the brass enzem started. janabel went crazy over guanteng and her pitching lah. omg janabel's like seriously obsessed with guanteng? haha! i think they did very well! tubas were damn strong lah haha. cheryl and jacey! (: trumpets also! guanteng and rachel! (; then valerie's facial expressions were so damn cute when she was soloing on her trombone please! ziyan and kexin as usual lah. play until so pro and at the end of it like nothing happened like that. haha! (:

then the wind trio (ros, tianhui and xiaohui) wetnt up next and ruimin janabel and i went backstage to prepare. was damn nervous and i was freaking out lah cause i was damn scared that i couldnt play cause of my dead fingers. :/ the wind trio sounded damn pro from outside! o.o ohmy. gave me more pressure. couldnt remember anything else cause i was damn freaking nervous.

then our turn came and i tested the mic before. started abit too fast with now's the time and my finger almost died halfway. ruimin soloed into so danco samba and again our tempo was abit faster then usual. :/ didnt manage to do my slapping thing in the end. ): but overall i think ruimin and janabel did great! especially the trade fours! and we finally manage to play properly like really properly without missing anything out. (:

but then i found out that i couldnt be heard at all even with the mic from the back of the audience. :/ ayee.

the other groups were all needless to say, freaking pro. haha. really really. then ban1 back to school after everything and thanked mr tan and mrs ee of course. (:

during these 5 days i was really tired and practice sessions made it more tiring but it was all fruitful and worth it. i really loved the practice sessions with mr macorome and to think that we wont be able to work with him anymore makes me miss him even more. he was really nice and helpful to us and he's the sole cause of our sucess. (: thanks alot alot alot! <3 (heard from tkc that it costs 150 bucks per hour to work with him! my god. )

anyway, i really hope that this type of sessions will take place more often. looking back, i dont think i would have bothered to talk to people like janabel and ruimin if i wasnt given this chance (not that i dont like them or anything) and the wind trio and brass enzem wouldnt have come together to play so sucessfully. this sabbatical has really made our batch closer and hope that we have more chance to work in these groups in the future! (:

JAZZ IS LOVE!!!! 'SO DANCO SAMBA! <3

i dont ever want this to end.

on a more casual tone:

OMGGGGG IM SO SCREWED FOR THIS HOLIDAY PLEASE.
THERE'S A MILLIONS THINGS TO DO AND IM DROWNING IN THEM.

and!

S.H.E's new album created another passion in me!

DANCE!

haha i dont know why, bit o sort of envy yihui and her dance lessons! (: YAY DANCE!

my god i sound like some mad woman.

tag replies
quin: aye i realised. that loudhailer. expected lah. HAHA.
yihui: 2.4 is not clever?! thanks i must be some retard then. and you know so much about jap entertainment news so i say you're very ahead of the news! (: and not as if you got no guy contacts on your list! -.- and YES SHE RECITED THE WHOLE THING TO ME. mygod you're so freaking hilarious please!
hansheng: that week is over!!! (: haha.
chai jiaying: hmm ya. but still! can we have more emotional songs in our repetoire? we do better in emotions! like PERSIS! haha.
qianwen: haha self satisfactory leads to EGO-NESSS. oh man very dangerous you know! and and and! i really really want it! ): BUT I CANNOT MAKE IT!
liuyi: huh?! waiting to change what? and waliao! dont talk about those cheem cheem stuff to me can! cause im dim-witted and I DONT UNDERSTANDDD. -.- haha! and ya we passed. and i passed BARELY. :/
wyquin: HUH! dont might lah. MUST!!! haha! (:
junqi: HELLO. why you online and in band to different one! so scary!
ruimin: HAHA OK!!! (: and YES JAZZZ! my god im missing it already!

2007-05-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

歌曲：谢谢你的温柔
S.H.E. & 飞轮海

ELLA: 謝謝你如此溫柔捧著愛靜靜等候
我的雙手其實同樣在氈斗
HEBE: 當我難給你什麼我只是一個他遺忘的吻
心被一掃而空
SELINA: 我會把你種在我心中
也許某天會終於再次長出一個夢

東+尊: 不知道不明瞭不想要為什麼
東:我的心
儒:明明是想靠近卻孤單到黎明
東+尊:不知道不明暸我想要為什麼
綸:我的心
儒:那愛情的綺麗總是在孤單裡
飛:再把我的最好的愛給你

ELLA:謝謝你如此溫柔跟著笑容的等
我只溫暖而不太讓我等很凍
SELINA:還未決定往哪走再所以不能答應你陪我
怕你會變成我
HEBE: 我會把你種在我心中
也許某天會終於再次長出一個夢

儒+綸:不知道不明瞭不想要為什麼
綸:我的心
儒:明明是想靠近卻孤單到黎明
儒+綸:不知道不明瞭不想要為什麼
尊:我的心
儒:那愛情的綺麗總是在孤單裡
飛:再把我的最好的愛給你

飛:不知道不明暸不想要為什麼我的心
儒+尊:明明是想靠近卻孤單到黎明
飛:不知道不明暸不想要為什麼我的心
儒+尊:那愛情的綺麗總是在孤單裡
飛:再把我的最好的愛給你

S.H.E:謝謝你如此溫柔
ELLA:點著笑容的等我
SELINA:只溫暖而不太讓我等很凍
S.H.E:還未決定往哪走再所以不能答應你陪我
怕你會變成我

there's chamber performance tmr.
there's napfa 2.4 tmr.
im just praying that i can just survive tmr please.

累了，心碎了，
眼泪也掉了，
你还要什么呢？

on a brighter note,
jazzz is starting to rock me off my feet-
literally. (:

SO DANCO SAMBA! <3

edit:

i didnt realise SYF photos were on webshots. :/ slowww.

anyway i must say matthew lim's photography skills are really good for some photos! (: they turn out looking quite good. (:

haha i love this photo! nut win liao lah! her horn's the highest point in our photo. -.-

haha my bass! (: loves.

/edit

2007-05-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday's sabbaticals was really hilarious.

tan kuo cheang spent the whole day suaning janabel like hell lah. so freaking hilarious please!

"siewying. so from your point of view yesterday did you find out that janabel was fatter?"

"janabel please dont anyhow hit your head. if not you'll get dumber. or maybe the effects are already starting to settle in."

"eee who's shoes are these! so ugly! i bet is janabel lie's one lah!"

in the end the shoes were guanteng's. HAHA. omg.

anyway, dr macorome couldnt make it for practice yesterday. so in end janabel ruimin and i were left to practice ourselves. tan kuo cheang did manage to come and see us for a moment. and omg it was so damn hilarious i almost died of laughter!

janabel made to go to the drumset to start playing but she saw a spider!

and she became hysterical and started to run away from the supposedly jumping spider. and then ruimin and i were trying to calm her (and ourselves) down and get her to play so as not to waste tan kuo cheang's time but she was still very hysterical.

in the end she found out that there were 2 spiders.

so ruimin took action and went to catch the spider and eventually brought it out of the room, but not before giving janabel a good scare and janabel finally freaked out by jumping up onto the piano stool. O.O i bet tan kuo cheang's damn amazed by her lah.

well, i am.

anyway we wasted like 10-20 minutes on freaking out and screaming and jumping and catching before we actually started to play for tan kuo cheang. omg haha so funny!

then after practice, tan kuo cheang can to bandroom to find me for the roomkey.

me: "huh? why ask me? it's with janabel what."
tkc: "HUH! WHY IS IT WITH HER!"
me: "of course her lah! why me?! o.O"
tkc: "AHH. janabel arh. WE DIE ALREADY. HOW CAN PASS TO HER. she's afraid of a spider lei. haiyo."

oh god. i almost died. he's so hilarious!

therefore;
my new found entertainment: TAN KUO CHEANG!
my new found love: PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN!

ahhhhh! the movie's coming out tmr! but there's band tmr and qianwen's pissed cause she cant make it for the preview of the movie haha.

"welcome to singapore!!!" god i almost fainted when i heard that in the advertisements.

by the way, WHY PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN GIVE ALUMNI PLAY! i want to play! ):
but i foud out that simple gifts is the one from lord of the dance, WHICH IS MY FAVOURITE SONG!!!!! <3 but sadly, double bass part is like crap lah. like 1 note in 1 bar. wth.

our concert repetoire is so weird! :/ but it's ok. there's PIRATE'S DREAMS.

ayeee MUST COME FOR OUR CONCERT OK!!!! 20TH JUNE! (:

today's sabbat lesson started off with sharing again. tan kuo cheang started suanning janabel again haha. but not so bad lah this time. HAHA.

oh oh. tan kuo cheang has very weird thoughts! he was saying how ruimin could like express herself more by shaking or swinging her head. then he pictured this scene where ruimin swinged her head until she sprained or breaked her neck. and she couldnt shake her head anymore. and he started laughing damn hysterically!!!! omg!

and his laughter is damn shocking! like some mad guy. so high-pitched! o.O

after break we had practice with dr macorome again. DR MACOROME IS A NICE PERSON TO WORK WITH! he's also damn hilarious, but in the serious way lah. omg the way he said we had to express ourselves with our body language was so hilarious lah. haha!

then he said jazz had some special some sort of radmark thing, like how bebop always sound like someone is spraying his saliva all over the mike or something. then he tried to demostrate and janabel started laughing like siao. o.O then janabel got so amazed with me doing huiying's bebop thing and she tried to say it.

SHE COULDNT. i am, once again, so amazed by her i tell you. wower.

haha omg. she kept getting her tongue stuck lah. O.O

went out with jessica and qianwen to orchard after school. (: we were VERY SAFE, since someone had HMP while we were shopping.

OHYES. STUPID KEXIN ACTUALLY SAW LIUYI, YIHUI, QIANWEN AND I AT BUGIS JUNCTION ON MONDAY! omg im so freaking pissed! she was in samuel and calvin and we walked into samuel and calvin lah! apparently she was in the dressing room. omg urgh! everytime when qianwen is around, she'll be around. and EVERYTIME SHE SEES US BUT WE DONT SEE HER. urghhh!

anyway, went to taka, heerens, and cine. I FOUND THE TOP THAT I LIKE WITH THE NECKLACE AT CINE!!!!! oh man. but it was like 25 bucks! ): found out that heerens have alot of nice stuff. just that im not that rich. cine also. (: should go to these 2 places to get more ideas next time. (:

took bus back to school cause some slug needed to hand in some homework. erms! but it's ok, cause we had a very interesting talk! (:

im so screwed. i need to do 2.4 tmr. cause i missed yesterday's and today's one. :/ rahhhh im so dead.

OH OH OH . summerxsummer's soundtrack is out! haha. ok random. :/

god. my whole holiday is screwed. ): bombarded with band pracs. and im damn worried about chamber performance. :/ with blisters poping out on my fingers.

somehow, listening to the songs reminded me of the state im in now.
and finding out some stuffs from qianwen really made me wake up from my dream.

urgh. get real siewying.
you'll never make it.

2007-05-23T00:57:00.000+08:00

it's so heartbreaking for one to realise that-
you grow up not being able to do what you really want to do next time.

like me.

cause i finally realised, wanting it isn't enough.

wanting it wouldnt get you what you want.
being able to get it does.

2007-05-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

first day of sabbaticals.

chamber music: JAZZ!

it's was all a very refreshing and new experience for me as it's the first time i see such pro brass players or jazz players are string players or chinese orchestra players. (not that the people in our school are all that lousy) but ya! everyone in the video that mrs ee showed us was so pro and the enzembles were all something very new and alien to us, yet it all just seemed so right. the video on swinging bach is OH MY. I'VE NEVER SEEN SUCH PRO-NESS IN MY LIFE. i want to borrow the cd!!!! (: and 鬼戏 is very eerie and all but the sound effects and the experimenting of new and different sounds were really interesting and something new all together! the enzemble of a western string quartet with a chinese pipa player was really weird but it all fit in perfectly and everything was really an eye-opener for all of us. (:

then went for recess and had a darn hilarious session with qianwen kexin and liuyi and everyone else. omg qianwen was so darn self-satisfied with herself for spending 2 freaking hours on folding ONE PATHETIC FLOWER. omg. haha. (:

then after recess we went back into our groups to practice and dr macorome (is this how you spell his name?) came to coach. expereienced more of jazz and had a great fun laughing our heads of at our silly improvisations and our pathetic basics. omg dr macorome is such a pro bassist! and he says he's not a percussionist but thanks, he plays the drumset like he's one please. -.- so pro! (:

jannabel, ruimin and i are all hoping to play the bossa nova for concert on friday but dr macorome says the "now's the time" is a basic jazz which we all have to know so apparently we have to learn to play that too. :/

went for NYAA checking after school. (: tintin didnt realy check anything lah. just confirmed with us stuffs. guenyik and i have to find something to do for nyaa cip! ): library or inspire?

went out with qianwen, liuyi and yihui afterwards. qianwen the pig ran off to kap to EAT and made me wait for her at newton mrt station haha. ayeee. went to bugis street and yihui got a bag while liuyi tried looking for her jumper. we finally found one at bugis junction in everlast but it was like 80 bucks! ): marvelled at samuel and calvin! haha my heaven! love their style but never really got anything from there so. :/ qianwen and i were looking around more for accessories and bitching about some people we know. ayeee. it's normal haha.

came back home with yihui and i found out how up to date or ahead of the news she's been. oh my she's so updated lah. haha.

managed to make people do wenqi's survey! i realised actually i have alot of guy contacts on my list but none of them whom i really talk to :/ in the end i didnt manage to get alot but someee. ): sorry wenqi! =x

i just remembered something really hilarious during the masterclass we had with mr okamura! he told us that during the SYF judging, lawrence siao announced our school and he went "band no. #### Nanyang Girls' High" and mr okamura went "what?! NINE YOUNG GIRLS HIGH?"

haha! omg so freaking hilarious. and he was like "the band must be pretty small then!" HAHA. omg i almost died of laughter!

going out on wednesday to arab street! going to get materials for our online shop since lynn cant make it :/ i want to start soon! (;

i need a job! ): there's one at city link's gelare and one at IMM's giordano but i dont know whether i should go for it or not. yihui help me check kay! (:

omg i feel like qianwen now. i feel damn self-satisfied with myself omg.

stop it siewying. stop being influenced by that slug!

URGH stupid slug! ):

edit:

sometimes i really wonder if i think too much.
too much to the extent where it's in excess.
i really i think about alot of stuffs.
and sometimes i really wish they do happen
sometimes i dont know what's real anymore.
and i realised-
it's all my wishful thinking.

/edit

2007-05-20T01:05:00.000+08:00

tag replies:
JO: why you never go! i like mr okamura! I WANT TO GO HAWAII! ):
qianwen: ya ya so self entertaining and self efficient! haha. aiyo i'll go mad with you guys around lah. and YES DUH YOU ARE SO DANGEROUS. and dont bother to find out. i'll be so much safer. (: AND AND AND! i also very luan now. you ask me how? and yes you run like you chasing after something or something chasing after you. if not tiger ot lion then what. cheetah arh. faster right! (:
quinza: O.O how you know my blog's url? and oh my you bring your cards everywhere? im so amazed! haha.
yihui: no lah. YOU LAH. SO SMART FOR WHAT. haha. (:
wyquin: i dunno! ): i want it to be on 7th july! then got the special feeling! (:
junqi: aye marching fun lah!!!! you dont know how to appreaciate!

i've been thinking about alot of things in class nowadays. the way things work and turn out and stuff. and i always end up feeling empty.

really, can we even tell what's coming next?

quite alot of stuff just happened to me suddenly these days and im still not ready to accept it. i just dont know how.

and this time, i really really dont know what to do anymore.

my holidays are screwed up. like totally. looking at my workload, i dont think i can go and work at gelare anymore. something which i was really keen on.

i need to revise IH and geog and chem and bio and music and maths. gahhh. especially IH and GEOG. im like totally screwed for these 2 subjects.

anyone can tutor me for geog or ih? please????

liuyi! that post isnt what it seemed to be! (: haha. dont be dumb. we hardly even talk please.

wenqi told me something which really made me fall out of shock.

she said i ______________.

haha liuyi you know right!

omg i almost died of shock and amazement please! i WHAT?! please i can just go and suicide liao lah. and DONT ANYHOW SAY PLEASE WTH. i dont even know those people! rahhhh you.

but im still nice enough to help you survey the people lah.

WAIT. must see the content first. haha!

and wthhhh!!!! i just found out that jericho got scraped off the concert repetoire list! WHYYYYY!!!!!!! T.T jericho so nice! ):

anyway, qianwen says we're starting marching in june!!!! YAY! I LIKE MARCHING! so fun! (:

im left with 7 rounds of punishments. HAHA YEO KEXIN GOT 10 MORE ROUNDS. ermps. random.

tkc is hilarious! omg he's body language and expressions very funny! (: and he's super sacarstic lah wth. -.-

went out with my family to raffles city to shop just now.

it's been more than a year since i last went to town to really really shop. and seriously i dont miss it. i dont buy anything at all.

i sit in the car and stare out of the window, only to see the rich getting richer and the poor getting poorer.

what's happening?

oh and i found out that my mum has a sense of fashion! wower. it's get that she doesnt follow the fashion trends. so she knows all about matching tunics with jeans or tights with all the craze about shoulder bags and many many accessories but she just doesnt bother to put it action. cause apparently all the current vintage stuff doesnt seem like fashion to her.

wow im amazed.

actually, on second thoughts, my sentiments too. it's like trying to modify and mordernise the oldies. which came out bad. :/ it makes people look older than they actually are.

but still, a girl following the fashion trends would say. "it's fashion. what do you expect?"

ok im out of here.

btw. I NEED TO CUT MY HAIR. ):

2007-05-19T15:22:00.000+08:00

im starting to think that pop suits me so much more than jazz.

groove it-
and im gone.

2007-05-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

went to yong siew toh conservertary today for chamber music.

the tutor's quite nice and hilarious. and jazz is funky.

went back to school for band and punishments. run 6 rounds with kexin and did 1 minute of drills with her. thanks lah she dragged me to do with her when i didnt have to do drills. but it was fun. then cynthia was taking sec 1s for marching and kexin qian and i decided to join them. the 3 of us sounded so much louder than the whole bunch of sec 1s im so amazed. haha.

my internal clock is so screwed up.. im sleeping at weird times of the day.

sometimes i think too much. ):

APPASSIONATA XI!!!
20th july
$15
siew may auditorium.

go okay! we're playing nice pieces like jericho, pirates dreams and pirates of the carribean. (:
tell me if you want tickets. (:

2007-05-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

omg i should just go and suicide.

at one glance at my results i thought i was quite ok.

but after finding out what people in 3o5 get, i should just go and suicide please.

oh my god GEOG. and IH. i should just go and die lah.

i really dont know what's happening anymore.
i dont know what i want.
i just know that-
i dont want to see her snatching my dreams away.

2007-05-15T20:41:00.000+08:00

简单爱

歌手:周杰伦
演唱:周杰伦
专辑:《范特西》
词:徐若瑄
曲:周杰伦

说不上为什么我变得很主动
若爱上一个人什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受

河边的风在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家一起
看着日落一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡著
像这样的生活我爱你你爱我

想简简单单爱
想简简单单爱

我想大声宣布对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受

河边的风在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家一起
看着日落一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡著
像这样的生活我爱你你爱我

想简简单单爱
想简简单单爱

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡著
像这样的生活我爱你你爱我

i dont know what to do.
he's going TJC.
and i think im so screwed.

i never thought the day would come.
one more month-
four more weeks-
four more lessons.

我只知道-
我跟他没缘

2007-05-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

tag replies
yihui: o.O ok....
jo: haha what secret! -acts blur- and not only wuchun has, ariel lin also. haha. just didnt link. :/ and HAHA why you went cruise huh! HUH HUH HUH! missed all the slacking about and mr okamura! (:
liuyi: huh huh huh what?!?! what talking you?! let's go out during the holidays!!!! cant wait. (:
.: ermmmm dental surgery?
qianwen: haha okayyyyy. and duh you're blind! you're a SLUGGG. -.- and ORH OK. it's SINGAPORE WIND SYMPHONY. fine fine. so weird. and yes this afternoon SOOOOOOO serious. -.-
junqi: O.O hello! you're the euphos junior right! the one keep stalking us one! -gasps-
wyquin: AHHHH. im stressed too. ):
clarice: will do. (;

i havent been able to come online very often, and probably wont be able to until very late at night.

for the past week i've been like SICK SICK and SICK. all because of one stupid medicine that the dentist gave wrongly! ): was late for school on monday wednesday and thursday last week! omg record holder lah. cause the surgery was on monday, i was like seriously sick on wednesday and i went back to see the dentist on thursday.

i kept vomiting and having serious headaches but im okay, with the exception of ONE THINGGG. grahhhh! so irritating! ):

had some breifing on the demo band thing with mr okamura on thursday during band! (: he's really hilarious and open! did some breathing and posture exercises. haha omg damn hilarious! (:

had 5 items on friday and managed to scrap through most of it. like SCRAP THROUGH. cause im like seriously not fit. and YES I KNOW QIAN VERY FIT LAH. ): run so fast like got some lion or tiger chasing her. -.-

had masterclass on saturday with MR OKAMURA! (: arrived there like 2 hours early and ended like 1 hour plus early can! so we wasted 3 plus hours slacking, playing and eating. and EUPHOS BROUGHT SO MUCH FOOD LAH. and in the end we were provided with food! o.O especially zhang qianwen! omg brought so much food! the whole bag filled with FOOD and more FOOD! so pro lah. -.- then they catered one table of food for our band and another table of food supposedly for HC band which was supposedly invited also but ultimately they decline the invitation i guess and ACSI got called upon instead. so when we saw acsi we were like o.O omg shit. and then they started taking food from THEIR table which was like just 5 metres aaway from ours and we were all like O.O. then lawrence siao came over and said: "eh you all eat finish already arh. eat finish then ok." then he turned and called to acsi "OOI! HERE STILL GOT FOOD! COME HERE AND TAKE!" omgg. we almost died siam-ing away please! -.-

then mr okamura came and gave us a little breifing! (: he's so cute lah! he was like talking to matthew lim about how we should go over to hawaii one of the days and we were like "YA YA YA WE WANT TO GO! YOU WANT TO SPONSER US?!?!?" haha. then we kept giving matthew lim the "PLEASE OH PLEASE CAN WE PLEASE GO" look. and he was like "er we need to negotiate with the school about that." HAHA. then jiaying was like "mr okamura! do you want us to go to hawaii?" and he was like "well yes." and we all turned to look at matthew lim lah. so classic please. haha.

anyway, masterclass was quite fun. mr okamura kept saying we were very gigglish HAHA. so dumb! cause we kept laughing at the posture thing. and then he said melanie very pro! and jasmine and i were like YA YA YA MELANIE VERY PRO! haha. yay! he siad our oboeist very pro haha! (:

on second thoughts maybe jasmine and i can be melanie's secret fanclub please. ok this is so dumb.

anyway, he said we were very well trained and very pro and we learnt very fast. and WE WERE VERY GIGGLISH. and he turned to ms chong and said "you did a very good job with them. well done!" omg made our day please! haha.

then after the thing ended and they went over to acsi band, we were left to ourselves to slack our time away. and the whole band were taking pictures like siao. sec 2s went mad lah. they spent half their time there jumping up and down to take photos of themselves jumping up and down in different positions. and sec 4s were sitting down looking at sec 2s going mad. and janabel lie was making this freaking hilarious stupid speech to flim lah. and kexin qian cheryl and quinza were playing BRIDGE. my god. quinza even bothered to bring cards can! im so amazed. cannot underestimate the madness of euphos section haha.

today went to school feeling abit sick and down. was quite downhearted cause of everything that happened the day before. then was rushing stuff during recess and lunch and partly because of other stuffs. then suddenly kexin and qian came to look for me to go lunch with me. o.o we went to sac to slack instead. and "destress" playing xbox. omg and im so amazingly shocked please! the first time i see kexin and qianwen act so childishly fighting over the beanbags and the remote control and screaming like siao. and of course there was much laughter. omggg. so dumb. haha. quotes qianwen: "if we ever invite jiaying right, i think she'll die of shock please! hahahahahahahaha" god. i so agree. madness.

and then kexin and qianwen were fighting and screaming and making such a noise that some juniors went to peek at us from outside. omg so malu can! see sec 3s behaving like kindergarten kids. my god.

then after school kexin called me and kexin and qian and i all choinged to sac again. to fight over the stupid xbox. god. then they were there screaming again! cause they played this lousy pok pok racing car game and they kept banging into each other. and they kept comparing who's a better driver. then i tried playing and I CONLCUDE THAT IM SUCH A LOSER IM THE WORST OF THEM ALL haha. god i should never become a driver please! :/ i'll die myself.

then we wanted to switch games and qian went to put in this weird helicopter game that is like no objective and most of them time we end up hitting into buildings and just killing ourselves. kexin got so amused she began to laugh like qianwen with the evil laughter! -gasps- im amazed! O.o

then we got tired of suiciding in the dumb game and switched back to the racing game where i "practiced" driving and they had a huge pillow fight. my god so scary please!

then we went out of the room and had a "serious talk" for like 1 plus hour about stuff. omg i realised qianwen doesnt know anything, she knows EVERYTHING. god i almost died please. she's so dangerous and scary! O.O muist be weary of her.

AND THANKS LAH. she always blog about everything then alot of people read her blog so now everybody also know everything. thanks lah! ):

and suddenly everything's going downhill.
everything. including you.

2007-05-12T01:51:00.000+08:00

my heart just died. thanks alot.

oh how i hate you.

2007-05-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

surgery's done. i feel pain and there's mild sweeling but overall it's ok. i need to get back tmr for another checkup.

missed all of today's lessons except ASSEMBLY. which was crap. allyssa was laughing hysterically at the topic and i was like "allyssa! stop it!" haha. ohman. i shouldnt have gone back for school. :/

there's global classroom lecture tmr during class contact. o.O exciting.

went for tank's mini concert at HCJC last thursday with allyssa, yihui and her friends, jo, yihong and chen tze. allyssa! send me the photos!

overall it was quite ok. he sang all the soothing songs. and there was an unplugged session. he's guitar is not bad! (; but he forget lyrics of 晴天雨and 懂了. and i think he went off tune for some bits but oh well. (:

im waiting for s.h.e's new album play. (: coming out this month.

gaaahhh i need to start saving. an ironic sentence with the previous one. and i need a JOB. ): LYNN! can we start soon? ): holidays go arab street and start ok! (: cause im like seriously broke.

and i eat and sleep alot nowadays. i dunno why. probably because of the medicine. i feel hungry very easily. im turning into a pig.

there's napfa on thurs and fri (wed). im so screwed for 2.4 please! i cant run for god's sake. need to bank in on sit ups and sit and reach and argh incline pull-ups!!! ):

reminder to self: change calendar, start listing ideas for games on band outing.

tag replies:
chai jiaying: hhurhur. that's dumb! -.- sounds damn communist please! and please! IM STRAIGHT. jasmine's so not my type. i wanna puke! ): and HAHAHAHA you sound jealous.
qianwen the slug: ermps. you are the EVIL and DUMB GOSSIP WOMAN!!! (: comeon man. dont live in self-denial. HAHA. =x and in the end kexin still saw you at ps what! and you didnt see her. HAHA LOSER! (:
yihui: you smart lah! i cannot say. ): and the l.a. test is so dumb.
liuyi: oh man so unfortunate. but aye! i went to go out together with you! ): and waliao why you so smart for l.a.! cant stand you! ): and your thoughts ARE abstract haha! (:
valentia: haha. she's in Singapore Winds Symphony. (:
someone: erm ok... thanks! and i like wuchun too! (:
hansheng: erm go and earn it yourself HAHA. and YES you're a bamboo pole. (:
jasmine: erps! (: haha.

2007-05-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

tmr's the surgery.

for first time in my life, i really really dread going there tmr.

i just hope there wont be pain or after effects cause i think there's napfa tmr.

i THINK.

i hate coming home from jason's alone. it's all so crowded on the buses and the mrt there's hardly any space to breathe. most of the time you get squashed by people you dont even know and you reach the next stop, you're squashed even more. plus it's all dark outside and there's always people staring at me. i dont know why. there's no one there for you to talk to take your mind of your personal fears and phobias. gaaahhhh i hate it.

and thanks. nanyang people are not cheena please. look at me. cant even make a proper chinese speech. who's cheena huh.

im dreading tmr.

2007-05-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

koped from qian. im plain bored.

CHOOSE 12 PEOPLE .
1. liuyi haha
2. kexin dodo!
3. qianwen slug!
4. jasmine TAN (:
5. lynn
6. sok khoong
7. jiaying
8. wenqi
9. tianhui
10. hansheng
11. valerie
12. benjamin CHAI

Q: Have you ever kissed number 7?
A: ewwww NO.

Q: What's the best memory you have of 9?
A: haha i dunno. she and her "dontcha!" HAHA.

Q: When's the next time you're gonna see 4?
A: tmr during band! (:

Q: Is number 8 pretty?
A: yes wenqi! haha yes.

Q: What was your first impression of number 10?
A: uh. erm. hmm. tall? (bamboo stick. HAH)

Q: How did you meet 3?
A: BAND. sort of through kexin. :/

Q: Have you seen 5 in the last month?
A: today! (:

Q: Do you think 2 has a crush on you?
A: HAHA no. she already has someone else! (:

Q: When was the last time you saw 12?
A: uh. sunday. during tuition.

Q: Have you ever been to 1's house?
A: yes.

Q: Would you ever kiss 6?
A: erm no. i dont know if SHE'S straight but I AM.

Q: When's the next time you'll see 10?
A: i dunno. :/

Q: Are you really close to 3?
A: haha sort of. gossip woman! (:

Q: Have you ever been to the movies with 4?
A: eh I REALISED NO. JASMINE WE NEED A SECTION OUTING.

Q: Have you ever gotten in trouble with 2?
A: uh i dont think so. HAVE I KEXIN?

Q: What do you and number 3 talk about the most?
A: erm. LOADS OF STUFFF. -evil laughter-

Q: Would you give number 5 a hug?
A: haha more of SHE give ME a hug! (: teddy bear!

Q: Would you like to spend more time with number 11?
A: probably. band what. (:

Q: Are you in love with number 12?
A: ermmm no?

Q: When have you lied to number 11?
A: probably never. i seldom talk to her. :/

Q: Do you know a secret about number 8?
A: haha YES. she and ____. (:

Q: Describe the relationship between number 9 and number 5.
A: they were EX-CLASSMATES and were from the same primary school! (:

Q: What is the best thing about your friendship with number 4?
A: MY LOVELY SENIOR + ONE AND ONLY SECTION MATE! haha sounds pathetic. :/

Q: What is the worst thing about number 1?
A: liuyi arh. her absolutely abstract thoughts? haha! and her fantasies of RCHORD! haha. no lah.

Q: Have you ever danced with number 7?
A: NO?! and will never. (:

Q: How long have you known number 12?
A: uh.... since last march? or may? cant remember. since i started with jason's. (:

Q: Have you ever been in a fight with number 8?
A: haha i dont think so.

Q: Does number 9 have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
A: HAHA i dunno.

Q: Have you ever been a co-worker with number 6?
A: huh in what way!?

Q: Have you ever wanted to punch number 2 in the face?
A: YES. haha no lah.

Q: Has number 1 ever met your mother?
A: erm i think so. but she probably forgot. :/

Q. How did you meet number 11?
A: band.

Q: Did you ever accidentally physically hurt number 5?
A: uh HAHA NOPE. -innocent grin-

Q: Do you live close to 7?
A: no. i dont think so.

Q: What is number 2's favorite food?
A: uhhh i dunno? hehh.

Q: What kind of car does number 12 have?
A: he doesnt have one.

Q: Have you traveled anywhere with number 8?
A: yes. well sort of.

Q: If you gave number 10 $100 dollars tonight, what would they spend it on?
A: i dunno. probably celebrate like a madman and free himself from all the homework. or get liberated or something. seriously how would i know?

bio wasnt bad. but it wasnt good either.
geog was rubbish. utter rubbish. 35 minutes for FOUR essay questions.

just when we thought that the exams are over,

we were told that there's a L.A. test tmr.

the best thing is-
we were only told TODAY.

and i have a feeling that irene tan's just LIKE THAT:

hopelessly forgetful.

or either that, she's just playing a fool.

god life is disturbing.

2007-04-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

i like totally dying for homework but i really want to post this!

through all these rainy days filled with loads of emo-ing from ME (hurhur), the one and only thing that kept me alive was BAND.

like seriously, today during sports meet, all i could think of was band. seeing all the hc seniors (and nanyang seniors) at the sports meet really brought warmth to my heart.

i was really because of band that i got to know music more, and music keeps my alive.

after sports meet, kexin and i went to slack off (or rather, talk like crazy about nothing but BANDDDD =D ) at KAP. listening to her more and one hours' worth of talk about BAND BAND BAND <3 filled with laughter was really hilarious and heartening. (: i was reminded by none other than her about what band was, what band is, and what band will always be in our hearts. though things have changed, it's still the same band that we really face with everyday.

thinking back in 2005, when we were merely sec 1s, when aiwen, yumin, vivien, zhuojin and yanzhen's batch was still around, band was really fun. their batch really helped us integrate into the whole band. they really helped us alot, and kept the passion within us burning.

though now their gone, and our band lacks their great source of fun, laughter, wackiness and simply craziness, what they taught and told us will always be remembered and kept in our hearts.

haha and someone else made my day! (:

i hope you dont mind me putting this up. :/

han sheng: hey. im listening to your band the phantom of the opera. although some screw ups, i can feel the emotions leh. i very happy now! (:

han sheng: the brass has the sense of authority damn nice. the flutes keep sounding very happy. make until i also happy. haha.

Appassionata X. (: phantom of the opera.

and really really. thank you han sheng. (: it really made my day! (:

i cant wait for july.
i cant wait for appassionata XI. (:

2007-04-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

once again i feel like deleting my blog.
it only reminds me of painful memories.

afterall i dont see the point in life anymore.
she doesnt want me to be what i want to be.

and thanks.
jason's not helping me please.
i swear i almost flared up with him today during tuition.
HE, being a PHD holder, CANT seem to tell the difference between a cheat and a friend.
I MEAN, urghhh! even ME, being a 15 year old, can tell that that old hag is trying to cheat him of his money. AND HE'S JUST TOO BUSY TRYING TO BE NICE.

sometimes. it's just too nice.

I MEAN.

IF SHE REALLY IS YOUR FRIEND, WOULD SHE BE DOING ALL THESE TO YOU?

dont you have any sense?

you're walking right into a deathtrap and you dont seem to realise it.

benjamin, isabelle and i and some others have already told you what WE THINK YOU SHOULD DO.

really. whether you decide to do it or not, it's up to you.

afterall, you're the one marrying her and getting it from her, not US.

/edit:

oh and I AM SO SORRY. -.-

but WE'RE not disappointed that we got a gold pur-lease.

WE'RE PROUD TO BE A GOLD BAND.

and WE'RE disappointed that YOU sadi WE were DISAPPOINTED made us look like SHIT.

/end edit.

2007-04-29T01:27:00.000+08:00

refer to qianwen's and kexin's blog.

i really want to rant but i guess i shall not.

cause really. words cant describe what i feel anymore.

thanks qianwen, han sheng for your care and concerns, advices and support!!! (: i really needed them.

and THANKS JASMINEE (haha! (: ) for being there for me when i needed someone! (:

even my family isnt helping. -.-

now i seriously need a double bassist to replce me for SWS cause i cant play for them for their concert.

cause im not allowed by my mum. -.-

im so sorry christal! ): sorry i let you down.

i feel so screwed.

中国话-S.H.E.

after hearing the full version, i realised the song isnt really like WOW REALLY NICE but still ok. the things that i like about it is the fusion of the eastern lyrics with western rap. haha. and all the 绕口令 in the lyrics and how fast they can actually say it.

cause i cant say it that fast. :/

shi my whole life is so screwed please.

tag replies
chingying: hello! (:
han sheng: o.o dunno what you're talking about. :/ and yes im going new zealand at the end of the year.
liuyi: haha i posted the wrong school! im going to chilton and it specialises in BALLET AND DANCE. ._. they got a jazz band and they have theatre art though. and i probably will get s.h.e's new album. we can go out!!! you still have WEP what. can go out during june.
qianwen: ehhh-to. i dunno. :/ she said SWS. HEHHEH you gossip woman! but actually slug nicer haha. ehhh no one pon CSM with me! ):
tabitha: xiao ta ta! please dont call me xiao xiu xiu! ): haha. i will cheer up de lah.
kexin: she in SWS... and HUH i want to pon please! so sian.
yihui: no...not lorh! bio was meant to be easy!
anne: erm hello... who are you?
valentia: HAHA. yes that christal CHRISTAL. christal joy kuna. haha. will relink next time! =x
tianhui: ): will try to lah. (:

2007-04-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

why cant i do what everyone else does?

why cant band be my life?

WHYYY must my mum be so against band?

and you still dont understand.
the whole world tells us that the award doesnt matter.
and yet the whole world looks down on us.

you dont understand; cause you're not from band.

cH!£n says (21:32):
eh forget about syf ba

fake that smile and laughter. says (21:32):
no i cant cause the whole world keeps reminding us.

2007-04-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

do you know how it feels to congratulate someone while your heart is bleeding inside?

the truth is, we really wanted it.

do you think we wanted the whole world to look down on us?

no one will ever understand what we feel,
cause you're not from band.
you'll never go through what we went through.
you'll never feel the same way as we do.

so will you stop it?

TANK's going to hci on the 3rd of may! i wanna go! but it's the 3rd of may!
and i got sws prac on the 2nd of may! o.O got the scores from christal today. god the fingering is murderous.

mien jun is improving! yay! probably the pro-est bassist in NYCB double bassists' history. even huiyan from string enzem said she was pro!

sws is having their concert on 8th july and NYCB's concert is somewhere there. AND the people from new zealand are here from 23 june to 15 july! AND IM SUPPOSED TO HOST THEM!

can someone please help me!?

im super screwed for bio and IH. like totally. AND I CANT SCREW BIO. ): im soooooo dead.

there's band tmr. there CSM on monday. and kexin qianwen and i are probably going to pon the whole csm thing. -.-

im dead tired.
emotionally.
physically.
mentally.

you dont know, do you?

2007-04-24T17:20:00.000+08:00

bio is so screwed. it's the first time i actually think that im really really going to fail bio.

how? ):

i just read rosalind's post and realised how funky our school life have been.

like how fortunate are we to have JASMINE TAN as our maths teacher and CHRISTINE LEE as our bio teacher?

and not to mention, LIM CHOW HOON as our geog teacher?

and not forgetting, WU LAO SHI as our chinese teacher!?

i mean. when in my nanyang life did i have the chance to have SOOO MANY NICE TEACHERS AT ONE TIME?

haha miss tan is SOOO FUNKY please! mel ros guen and i went to look for her the day before maths test to clarify and ask stuff and she was damn nice about it please! she has VERY GOOD DRESSING SENSE. and FUNKY SHOES. and we sort of digressed to shopping and she was like: "eh you guys like shopping arh! must go japan! there very nice to shop! (: "

O.O wow.

and geog lim is SOOOO freaking hilarious. he always come to our class to joke lah. (: which his funny expressions and exaggerations and big big actions! ha so funny!

and christine lee so so so nice! wu laoshi also! so soft-hearted! (and we always take advantage. =x)

haha how fortunate can we get?

and DELINE SOH IS SOOOO FREAKING HILARIOUS PLEASE. yesterday's assembly is the FIRST TIME i see her in that stage! omg she's so drama! can win the star awards lah. ros and mel were practically laughing throughout the WHOLE assembly can! HAHA. omg. haha. ok stop.

JASMINE TAN LING YI was so sweet yesterday. she bought lunch for me just because i helped her print a 10 page report. haha. then i bought her food today. and we ate together. haha. so sweet! (:

omg i still cant get over the fact that i'll probably fail BIO. i mean. it's BIO. who fails bio?! and if it's like IH or GEOG it wouldnt matter so much.

but BIOLOGY?! omg suicide please. T.T

there's IH test tmr. and i'm probably giving up on it. northern ireland conflicts. :/ dunno what's that. and I DONT EVEN HAVE THE FREAKING SOCIAL STUDIES TEXTBOOK. ):

i need to get a life. ):

中國話

倫敦瑪莉蓮買了件旗袍送媽媽

莫斯科的夫司基愛上牛肉麵疙瘩

各種顏色的皮膚各種顏色的頭髮

嘴裡唸的說的開始流行中國話

多少年我們苦練英文發音和文法

這幾年換他們捲著舌頭學平上去入的變化

平平仄仄平平仄 (仄仄平平仄仄平)

好聰明的中國人好優美的中國話

扁擔寬板凳長

扁擔想綁在板凳上

板凳不讓扁擔綁在板凳上

扁擔偏要綁在板凳上

板凳偏偏不讓扁擔綁在那板凳上

到底扁擔寬還是板凳長

哥哥弟弟坡前坐

坡上臥著一隻鵝

坡下流著一條河

哥哥說寬寬的河

弟弟說白白的鵝

鵝要過河河要渡鵝

不知是那鵝過河

還是河渡鵝

全世界都在學中國話

孔夫子的話越來越國際化

全世界都在講中國話

我們說的話讓世界都認真聽話

紐約蘇珊娜開了間禪風Lounge Bar

柏林來的沃夫岡拿胡琴配著電吉他

各種顏色的皮膚各種顏色的頭髮

嘴裡唸的說的開始流行中國話

有個小孩叫小杜

上街打醋又買布

買了布打了醋

回頭看見鷹抓兔

放下布擱下醋

上前去追鷹和兔

飛了鷹跑了兔

灑了醋濕了布

嘴說腿腿說嘴

嘴說腿愛跑腿

腿說嘴愛賣嘴

光動嘴不動腿

光動腿不動嘴

不如不長腿和嘴

到底是那嘴說腿還是腿說嘴

曲：鄭楠詞：鄭楠 / 施人誠

2007-04-22T11:16:00.000+08:00

listening: S.H.E's 中国话 from S.H.E.'s blog.

new song from their newest album is the making.

really made me reflect on what i've been doing these days.

and i realised that the wall between me myself the the outside world is closing in.

im de-assoiciating myself from the big world outside-
and i've decided to dedicate myself to studies, mainly maths, CHINESE and sciences.

and most importantly-BAND and MUSIC.

for the better me-
for the better tmr-
for the better future.

2007-04-21T09:28:00.000+08:00

i made a mistake in my previous post.

im going to chilton instead, not christchurch.

Chilton St James School (Wellington, New Zealand)
Chilton Saint James School, established in 1918, is a prestigious, traditional, private day school for girls from preschool to year 13. It is one of New Zealand's top performing private schools, regularly placed in the top 2% for national examinations. The school is committed to the development of the whole person and its quality education is delivered by specialist teachers in classes of no more than 25 students. In its wide range of sporting and performing arts choices, there is the opportunity to study Classical Ballet and other related dance styles at the Chilton Centre of Excellence in Dance, the leading secondary dance organisation in New Zealand.
More information can be found in the school website:
http://www.chilton.school.nz

i expect ill be there to like, learn about their dance?! O.O hope i get to learn more about their theatre art and their jazz band though. :/

and the attachment to chilton is from 12nov-2dec!!! omg right smack in the middle of the whole holidays. and i'll be like celebrating my birthday over there! ):

the students are coming from 23 jun to 15 july. O.O

whenever i hear this, there's a sad empty feeling inside me.

Music

-from Danson Tang's blog. (唐禹哲)

2007-04-19T00:55:00.000+08:00

sorry for this very very very very late replies. replies date back to 30th march? =x sorry!

and thanks for all your jiayous and good lucks for SYF. they've really been of use for us! (:

tag replies:
lynn: yay!
liuyi: haha no you're not the first to like r.chord! first from our school maybe. :/ and ya you his 头号FANS lah ok? (: and aye. im just not up to standard. im not up for it. ): but thanks anyway! and I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT CHAI ANYMORE. ): i feel lost.
peisan: very often meh? i just changed! haha. and yes MS CHONG CRIED! woots. (sounds mean :/)
sylvia: oh hi! (:
yihui: oh ok. o.O
han sheng: -.- dont fake lah. not funny. and for the 取金 with honours thing, now you know why we're not cheena. :/ gwh and gold is obviously you please. -.-
jasmine: haha duh. if you emo and i emo then the whole section emo. then how? and I BLOGGED. (:
qianwen: you gossip woman! and haha yes you're mad. HOW YOU KNOW HAN SHENG. and YES I MISS BAND. ):
kexin: haha you what chapter liao arh? is the second gold you? o.O
wy quin: yes and we saw you! (:
cynthia: haha thanks! i really needed that.
valerie: hi! (:
jo: stop making me jealous liao lah. T.T and haha thanks for the encouragement!
chingying: haha RANDOM.
aLy: eh who are you? o.o
the.lol.person: who are you too! o.o
vengyi: oh my! HELLO. long time no see. or hear. haha. thanks! (:
lien: HELLO! (:

sunday at jason's was ok.

yet after the lesson, i met him coincidentally at the foot of the bridge to parkway, even though he left about half and hour before it.

was it mere coincidence?
do coincidences happen twice or even thrice a row in a day?
i dont think so.

at the centre we're classmates, maybe even friends when we have to solve stuff together.
yet-
on the streets we're merely passers-by, or strangers at crossroads.
it's disturbing.

been taking the bus to school these few days. and i've been meeting hakim on the bus.

everyone's growing so tall. and im forever at this height. ): and i like SJI's jacket. (: green and white.

went to watch SYF at SCH on monday with qianwen. was supposed to meet kexin but apparently she disappeared into thin air. fortunately qianwen had alot of contacts and we managed to sneak in to take a peak. RI's performance was nice! thought they did very well. (; especially for their choice piece and the part at sunrise where the upper woodwinds mimic the sounds of birds. very nice! (;

qianwen and i went back after RI's performance. heard alot of gossips from her. shall award her the gossip women of the year. (:

volunteered the help out at the SWS on tuesday, mainly just playing the double bass for their percussion enzemble, cause christal said they needed someone to help and jasmine didnt want to so there i volunteered. concert's on the 8th july! and they practice at ulu pandan cc, just next to my grandma's house.

yesterday was quite a fortunate day for me i guess. just quite screwed up at the end. morning was usual and i found out that im going to chilton (wellington, new zealand) for overseas attachment for end of year programme. smellie's going jaipur (india) and mozzie's going camberwell (melbourne, australia). congrats! (:

Christchurch Girls’ High School was established in 1877 and has an excellent record of academic excellence. In addition, the school provides a wide variety of co-curricular activities. Students are also able to enjoy the close proximity of the Botanic Gardens, the Public Library, the Arts Centre, the Art Gallery and Museum as well as the beautiful River Avon.
More information can be found in the school website:
http://www.chgirls.school.nz

felt a little lost then. i had already mentally prepared myself for work experience, yet-

i just dont know.

then had the long awaited (dreaded) maths test which was rumoured to be very long cause alot of people couldnt finish the paper. though i managed to finish most and left only a 2 mark question blank, i still feel worried. ): i feel like something's missing.

then after school we had music. mrs ee was shocking, appearing to be so high yesterday, laughing at our lame and ridiculous opinions. i screwed up assesment as usual. ): played sonatina and broke down alot alot alot of times. rushed like siao. but surprisingly i still could hit all the notes. and i guess i was like the worst in the class. ):

after lessons, sarah goujun shena and i changed and went to thai noodle house for dinner. ate liao then bused to marina and walked to esplanade for piano recital. the recital was really good! called "an orchestra at the keyboard", kenneth hamilton really pulled it off. all the difficult fingerings with speeding running notes and the great leaps and runs and crossing of hands. really amazed and impressed. and wow the piano is nice. haha.

today.

i feel so screwed. i feel tired. tired of life or just plain tired i dont know.
i dont know who i am. im someone with lost identity.
i seem so have split personality. one during band and music and the other in lessons at home and at jason's.
i'm merely masking my true self, pretending to be a happy-go-luck girl.
i'm hiding myself from the eyes of others, afraid of what they would think of me.
i'm going anti-social.

i usually hold back when my eyes are wet, yet when i want to let all the tears flow now, i cant seem to be able to.
and that's when i realise that bottling up isnt doing any good at all.
the pain is unbearable.

can someone just really make me cry?

2007-04-15T21:43:00.000+08:00

i think i let songs affect my moods too much. it seems like im having mood swings now.

i really want to cry. but somehow, no matter how hard i try, i cant seem to be able to.
i really want to realise that dream, but no matter what i do, i dont seem to be able to.
i really want to be able to do it, but somehow, no matter what i do, i dont seem to be able to.
i really want to be that, but somehow, no matter how long it takes, i dont seem to be able to.

im torn between emotions.
i just really dont know what to feel.

我很难受。却没有人能理解这个痛苦。

sometimes i just dont know what's the point in life.
like what happens after you die? an afterlife?

最後的微笑
作詞：顏璽軒　
作曲：Tank　
編曲：林邁可

還是為你披上我最愛的外套
手扶梯盡頭己到
還想若無其事說再見或擁抱
你退後得很禮貌

你愛了誰　
我不知道
地鐵在呼嘯

你最後　的微笑　
有淚水劃落的線條
祝福的味道
多完美　的微笑　
殘酷而溫柔的揭曉
愛無可救藥　
我被換掉

你回家了沒我還是很想知道
傳個簡訊好不好
我站在原地心卻跟著你奔跑
消失盡頭的鐵道

你愛了誰　
已不重要　
很高興得到

你最後　的微笑　
有淚水劃落的線條
祝福的味道
多完美　的微笑　
殘酷而溫柔的揭曉
愛無可救藥　
我被換掉

保護自己別受到　
華麗承諾的討好
要我別管你過得好不好　
做不到

你最後　的微笑　
有淚水劃落的線條
祝福的味道
多完美　的微笑　
殘酷而溫柔的揭曉
愛無可救藥　
我被換掉

2007-04-15T00:20:00.000+08:00

oh my. i just saw something that is enough to make me cry.

First band was Changkat Changi followed by Kentridge. Both bands played Sunrise followed by their chosen piece. I shall not comment about those bands. Hwa Chong Institute came in the as the 3rd band. They played Sunrise too, followed by their chosen piece. I liked their chosen piece. It was cool and all of us expect them to get Gold With Honours. I forgot the sequence of the other following bands but i know before Bedok Town's turn, it was Nanyang Girl's High. Woots! They played Safari and OH MY GERARD WAY! they were SUPERB!!! AWESOME!!! and many more bombastic words that suits them. Oh man! All were girls and they sound fantastic. Both their set piece and chosen piece were superb. No words could describe my thoughts about them. They just blew me off. For Safari, the song was about the entrance to a safari and sounds of elephants, snakes hissing etc all inside that piece. Haha!! I sat beside WeiDa and when Nanyang Girls reached the part where sounds of elephants, birds etc came in, he was like - "Oh my god! What was that?!" That was my reaction too. They totally AWED me. Hahaha!!I expected them to get Gold With Honours. =D After Nanyang Girls, Bedok Town came on stage.
-From http://vampiranights.livejournal.com

AND ANOTHER ONE:

Nearly couldn't enter the hall this morning.haha.. Thanks edward..Nanyang band was playing. Dun see them, all GIRLS, almost ALL small small size one, they are really GOOD!Playing good, screaming also good! They played Safari and Jericho. Safari was nice and scary. Jericho very nice! Million times better than Moulmein!
http://fang-clar.blogspot.com/

this is enough. this just proves that though we did not get a gold with honours, we played for the audience that day. and that is enough.

I MISS BAND. ):

and i love the band uniform! (:

i cant believe everything's put to an end.

i cant believe the best day there was also my last day there.

i cant believe im going to leave.

2007-04-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

i really dont know how to react.

i really dont know what to say.

a part of me tells me to be happy and contented with the GOLD that we got.
but the other part of me feels guilty and sad.

i really dont know what to feel.

thinking back 2 years ago, when they announced that we got a gold, no one cheered. it was utter silence, which later including sniffs, which later turned into tears, and cries of sadness.

that night, we were the only band which got a gold but walked away in tear and sadness.

hoho the irony.

yet today, when they announced that we again got a gold, we cheered our hearts our hearts out and sabrina and vera even jumped out of their seats in joy.

and the ironic thing was that we heard nan chiau (who was right before us) play 7th night for their choice piece.

hoho the irony.

*omg i dunno why but i feel like crying now. ):

and today was the first time i played jericho's victory part so emotionally, I REALLY WANTED TO CRY ON STAGE.

but i couldnt. i dunno why.

and IM REALLY REALLY TOUCHED when i see aiwen, yumin, yixi, eugenia, clara, sylvia, margret, cheryl, chungyan, jackyln, guakhee, elissa, yasi, yanzhen, yingrui and MANY MANY MANY MORE SENIORS ponned school JUST TO COME ALL THE WAY TO SCH TO SUPPORT US! thank you so much!

and omg WE MADE OUR SENIORS CRY with our performance! yay! (:

and when they announced the results, we were all very nervous and holding each other's hands cause all the bands before us got bronze bronze bronze silver silver.

and HC got a silver so we thought we might get a silver too. cause they were quite good!

but no! we got a gold! and sorry jasmine for squeezing your hand too tightly!

and we're the only gold of the day! o.O quite surprising but ya! (:

if you guys want to know more about the results, you can check out this website. scroll down and you'll find our school! (:
http://sgbandfusion.com/syf/results.htm

apparently we're the 9th gold band and only st pats got a gold with honours so we're not so bad. (: today's overall is 1 Gold , 9 Silvers, 16 bronzes. such a big difference from the last syf!

anyway, han sheng showed me a blog and i found out that some people from others bands which performed today were quite dissappointed. but DONT BE OKAY! cause we really really thought you guys were good! (: and though you guys got a silver, you are a gold band in our hearts ok? (:

and to those bands who havent been for the judging yet e.g. RI, SJI...: JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! please you best and DONT LEAVE THE STAGE THINKING THAT YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER OK! (:

and oh man i think we were quite composed today. i mean we came back to school like nothing happened. and we werent cheering until we went back up to the bandroom lah. HAHA. and MS CHONG CRIED IN THE BANDROOM! OMG! yay we made her cry! (:

after 5 months of sweat, tears, frustration and hard work, it has certainly all paid off today. (: and we certainly are a SOLID GOLD BAND. (:

YAY I LOVE JERICHO! (:

we were all touched by our own music,
we melted the audience's hearts,
we made our seniors cry,
we played for ourselves,

we made music. (:

and when we all graduate from nanyang, i think what yanzhen said is true. we wouldnt look back at our nanyang life and think about the how much fun we had in school.

we'll think about how much fun we had in BAND.

thank you sec 1s for helping us!
thank you sec 2s for supporting us!
thank you sec 3s for being there for us!
thank you sec 4s for leading us!

thank you NYCB for making this possible, and all the fun and memorable times in band! thank you for giving me these memories and for letting me have a wonderful and enjoyable time in band!

thank you NYCB for EVERYTHING. (:

i still cant believe 5 months of hard work ended today.

yet im still worried about tmr.

edit:

from bandfusion.com-forums

There was only one band that I heard today, and knew for certain it is a gold band. Congrats to NYGH! You all did very well. Articulation and intonation was great! Perhaps towards the end of Jericho, everyone is tiring out, so the tuning starts to waver, but it was a great performance by the girls. Personally, I think you all chose pieces that suits your band well. I mean, who can scream better than an all-girls band for Jericho? Plus the screams for the results were deafening. LOL. Great job! -tch clarinet

omg omg omg! "knew for certain it is a gold band!" OMG FENG DIAO! (:

and omg omg omg CYNTHIS SAYS OUR RECORDING IS DAMN NICE OMG! ahhhh IM SUPER HIGH NOW. (:

OMG OMG OMG I CANT WAIT LISTEN TO THE RECORDING AHHHHHHHH

omg i cant sleep now. adreneline RUSSHHHHHH. (:

/edit

2007-04-10T19:42:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg!!!!!

SYF IS TMR!!!!!!!

i dunno whether to laugh or cry, to scream or shout, to be nervous or excited.

cause cat high, anglican and orchid park got silver! and they were gold with honours bands!

and ST PATRICK'S GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS! (again. -.-)

and RGS GOT GOLD!!!

im worried.

AND AND!

COMMONWEALTH PLAYED JERICHO AND SAFARI TOO!!!

AND THEY GOT GOLD!!!

oh my!!!

but anyway! i thought we sounded rather good during today's band prac in the BAND ROOM!!! i finally got the feeling! i dunno what feeling BUT AIYA THE FEELING LAH. and oh man i really wanted to cry but i couldnt cry i dunno why! and ms chong's face was really red during victory and I BET SHE WAS CRYING! dunno because we were too sucky or our playing touche her heart i dunno.

BUT TMR! WE MUST PLAY UNTIL MS CHONG CRIES (CAUSE OUR PLAYING MOVED HER) OK! (:

and WE MUST TOUCH THE HEARTS OF OUR AUDIENCES TOO! (:

we must play for ourselves and for the audience.
we must play for the band.
we must play our best and not be affected by the surroundings.
AND YES WE CAN DO IT! (:

tmr!!!! NYCB JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!

gambate!!! (:

edit:

HAHA i think the whole band very funny.

on my msn list i see one whole list of people with similar nics now:

NYCB 11apr07 onebandonesound siewying(: says (22:00):
will do
NYCB 11apr07 onebandonesound juan. says (22:03):
cannot sleep at 1 again ah!!!

haha YAY! (:

/edit

2007-04-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

it's the first time i see her cry today.

and i guess it's the same for many others.

this just shows people are having major breakdowns.

and it's the first time i see the sec 4 batch so solemn and so sad.

NUTCASE! must cheer up ok! no matter what! (: im always here for you!

and you might not know it, but you just brightened up my day. (:

2007-04-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

im sorry.

but-

现在我的情绪很不稳。):

从回家到现在，我一直都在听许多抒情歌。

听着听着，不知为什么，　我听了，就会流眼泪。

就连一个短短的韩曲，都会让我掉泪。

我很怕。

怕达不到目标，怕令师姐和老师失望，怕自己会在不适合的情况下掉泪，怕自己撑不下去。

不是已经说好要坚强的骂？为什么又哭呢？

but no matter what, we as a band, as NYCB will play our best and play and ~~scream and~~ shout with all our might. right?!

we can do this! 相信自己就是力量！

dont give up now-
cause this is not the end.

this is just the beginning.

2007-04-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

it's supposed to be 3 more days to SYF'07 but let's just take it as 2 more days. (look at the time now.)

anyway, anyhow, no matter how pessismisstic i was, i shall try and need to think more positively from now on.

YES THINK THE POSITIVE.

NYCB!!! JIAYOU!! like what jasmine wrote on the board (or rather, tried to)：相信自己就是力量。我们有加油，　同心协力，　一起达到目标！

NYCB! WE CAN DO IT!

and THANKYOU cynthia, jo and liuyi LOADS and LOADS and LOADS for all your encouragement! (:

oh by the way LYNN, I FOUND WHERE WE CAN GET BEADS FOR OUR ONLINE SHOP!!! PARKWAY HAVE! and there's this online spree selling these gemstone beads i think. can go and check it out.

anyway, TODAY WAS A PRETTY GOOD DAY! (:

friday we went to 扫墓 in the morning, and then i went over to kendra's house to do chem sia with peisan. I NEVER WANT TO EAT SO MUCH SWEET STUFF ANYMORE! omg phobia of eating too much apple jam. haha! but overall it was FUN!!!

saturday morning went for band, where we played in the quadrangle. the sound was pretty weird. :/ and jasmine and i and a FUN AND DUMB time trying to help HER (jasmine lah) MEMORISE THE SCORES haha.

then had maths and chinese tuitions then rushed for dinner with AUNTIE SIAN LAY and UNCLE LAI!!! omg i miss them! ): and we had this rather dumb game/conversation/joke round/ debate amoung the children (with the exception of GARY the OLD ONE). HAHA. quite dumb. and marcus and i were the only ones telling all the dumb and lame stuff lah. ): and waliao BENJAMIN KOH BULLY ME ARH. 小小年纪就会欺负我！没大枚小。 rawrrr!

then this morning we went to send auntie sian lao and uncle lai off! ): then gary's family and us with grandma and auntie sian bee went to eat lunch at changi's popeyes. then went for jason's tuition.

and HAHA today was quite fun! cause though it's kinda boring with all the maths to do and stuff, (espcially when it's QUADRATIC EQUATIONS TODAY OMGGG) but i did it with BENJAMIN CHAI!!! (:

and haha it was quite fun and dumb at the same time cause i dunno how to do alot of stuff and he got alot of careless mistakes and there was no answer key for us to check with so we had to help each other to corrct mistakes.

AND i found out that he's not as bad as i thought he was! he's quite nice AND HE DO DAMN FAST LAH. ): and i do very slow so he's always like waiting for me! ): im so sorry!!!!! =x

yay must do more of these type of practices then fun! (: and JASON was like! i dunno how to say anymore. haiyo. 自己找自己麻烦，最后还叫我们帮忙处理！in the end benjamin had to help him eat all the food lah! haha.

in conclusion, TODAY IS A PRETTY GOOD DAY!

oh btw, GARY I KNOW YOU'RE BACK IN NS CAMP NOW.

but anyhow, JIAYOU FOR NS haha. you can do it!

~~oh my. i dunno why,~~
~~but i got this feeling when im around with you.~~
~~this 偷偷爱的感觉。~~

2007-04-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

我的心很痛！

i dunno.

but sometimes i really feel that-

waiting for it to happen
is like waiting for rain in a drought.

i guess it will never come true.

I REALLY NEED A BREAK FROM ALL OF THESE PLEASE. ):

2007-04-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

oh my godddd

I FEEL DAMN STRESSSED.

我很想哭。一直哭一直哭。哭到天亮为止。

LIUYI!!!! ): im sad!!!! T.T

and i see so many pretty faces!!! the more i see, the more discouraged i get.

I DONT THINK MY DREAM WILL COME TRUE. ):

and CONGRATS TO NYCO!!! they got GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

JIAYOU THEATRE!!!!

the pressue gets higher as the dates nearer.

i feel so screwed. ):

2007-04-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

为何我的心情又不好?!?!!

i realised what jasmine said was true.

everytime before syf arrives, everything just starts pilling up. the stress, the workload, the emotions blah blah blah.

and sometimes it's to the extent where most of us start to break down.

JASMINE!!!! if you are reading this anyway.
CHEER UP KAY!!! life's never easy. but we have to keep looking on the brighter side of life! (:
and HAHA i will always be here for you! (:

STUPID QIANWEN! had some stupid convo with her (SLUGGG) today. AND SHE'S SO ANTI-CLIMATIC WALIAO. refuse to tell me anymore!!! ): dont tell me in the first place lah. now i feel so- i dunno. 一知半解？ haha. but nvm, there's YEO KEXIN to exchange "chapters" with HAHA.

and i found out that-

SJI people can sometimes be as despo as RI people. NEWS TO ME OK! i dunno why either! i thought sji people not so despo one!

but NOW I KNOW. hehheh. (:

and annabel was like "oh you know! HC people quite cool ok! they play soccer during recess one you know!!"

and i thought people from sji and ri also do that? HAHA. ok nvm.

sorry but no offence to any sji or ri or hci people around! =x

sorry liuyi! but im not able to finish the lyrics by this week! ): sorry sorry! =x i'll try to improve it after syf and the exams kay! sorry sorry sorry! T.T

JIAYOU CO FOR SYF!!! (:

we know you can do it!

2007-03-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

今天我的心情不好。):

anyway. i think i'll be setting up a LJ account soon. (: haha. cause there's more communities there. but i'll be keeping this account for post and the other for blog-hopping and shops i guess. :/

I REALLY WANNA BUY THIS:

but it's like 18 bucks! ): is it worth it?

ok that's not the point.

THE POINT IS:

im sorry to those whom i havent been really myself and paying attention to things and all lately. cause im preoccupied by the big big word called SYF. and some other family matters.

AND if you guys cant reach me by my house phone, CALL MY HANDPHONE. cause my mum just pulled out the plug today CAUSE-

nvm. family stuff.

and YES NYCB. JIAYOU FOR SYF'07.

12 MORE DAYS!!!!!!

tmr morning mozzie(ros) and i are off to gen-ny's(guen's) house to do something called PROJECT.

oh that marvelous word. made my life a misery. ):

on the brighter side, there's probably makeover.

HAHA.

2007-03-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

i realised that alot of "new" people are tagging at my tagboard nowadays.

anyway! SYF is in LESS THAN 2 WEEKS' TIME! and i thinktoday's NIGHT SAFARI today was very nice!!!!! especially percussion! haha must jiayou and play better for syf! (:

ohoh. for the last 3 saturdays our band have been going out for band exchanges and we've met with RI, RGS, RV, TKSS, TKGS, Yuhua, Fuhua, Marsling, SCGS, SJI, Cresent and many many other great bands! (: there was alot to learn from each other! (:

and for the last band exchange with TKSS, we actually have an ACTUAL REAL double bass sharing with TKSS band bassist. and haha both of them were very nice. one was sec 3 and one was alumni. (: the alumni guy so pro! was once under ms yeo for bass too! (: and tkss said they liked our jericho! (: yay! and tkss's percussionists very pro! (:

and i think RI's sunrise is very very very nice! omg. (: haha. and HAN SHENG. MELANIE SAID WE WERE VERY PRO LAH OK. haha! and YUHUA IS A VERY NICE BAND TO WATCH. haha. their actions all very nice. and their dynamics very good. (:

and at the WASBE workshop, we learnt alot too! our band improved alot afterwards and they pros there said that our double reeds were very pro! (:

anyway liuyi and i still want to go ahead with our "dream" and do our stuff! despite the time constraints and all! but ya! JIAYOU! and yihui can help us with lyrics! (:

AND LYNN! our online shop thing is ON ARH! (: yay! let's go shopping for materials during the june holidays!!!

but june holidays seem so faraway. ):

and YES. SUPPORT SHIHUI'S ONLINE SHOP: http://thefoodhouse.blogspot.com . go and take a look! (:

and YAY jasmine tan is out of her depression state! (: shall go crazy again during band pracs.

and i still want to DREAM!!! (:

jiayou everyone for their syfs! (;

TAG REPLIES

tianhui: YA omg i miss OBS! i feel so stressed in civilised singapore and so serene in ulu pulau ubin! ): I MISS KAYAKING! except the capsizing part.=x and ya! why RI so pro! ): and tkss!!
stranger: erm who are you? o.O
CHAI JIAYING: haha! OBS MAH must write long long for memories. and your posts all also long long one what! -.-
slug: haha! in what way? the positive or negative way!?!
nutcase: HELLO NUTCASE! (: nvm nobody's bothering me. ):
wyquin: AHHH. I VERY SCARED. ): LOOK AT OTHER BANDS!!!
jasmine: haha i know whay you feel cheated! but please dont be. she did this before!
han sheng: who's andrew?! the flautist?
eening: done!!! (:
passerby: haha! i know! im sorry but im abit lag. :/
JO!: HAHA. im so sorry BUT I PREFER WU CHUN. (:
sylvia: erm. im sorry but which sylvia are you? haha! i know too many sylvias. =x
liuyi: EH VERY SMART ARH! haha L.CHORD. waaahhhhh. the female version of r chord. eh sounds abit wrong. :/
brenda: AHHH FEI LUN HAI. haha. it's called xia xue. (:
yihui: HAHA. CAN. eh who's zhou wejie? =x
shihui: haha! i helped you publicise liao ok! (:
ziying: ahh omg! please correct me if im wrong BUT ARE YOU THE ONE WHO SITS BEHIND ME FOR HNL IN PRIMARY 5?!?! omg that's like 4 years ago!!!
heeai: haha i admire him cause of his guitar and transposing techniques but not so crazy over him until like liuyi like that. I LIKE FAHRENHEIT MORE. haha. (: but the reason's DUMB. =x

IM STILL STUCK AT QUESTION 4 FOR WORKSHEET 7.2 FOR MATHS AND I CANT DO THE FIRST 3 QUESTIONS.

IM SO SCREWED. ):

2007-03-26T16:55:00.000+08:00

我恋爱了!!!!!!!

爱上好多好多人哦！

有郑元畅，吴尊，唐禹哲，阮經天，小鬼等等。

因为我看了：

热情仲夏！(: 有郑元畅和五熊饰演。朝好笑的哦！哈哈！

我也爱上了唐禹哲的“最爱还是你”！如果真的能跟他一样那么有才华的话，我看这是我们的荣幸吧！

LIUYI! 加油！哈哈！你不是要想 R.CHORD 一样吗？

热情仲夏的片头曲也很好听！你要什麼就說 by Xiao Yu (小宇)　(:

你要什么就说－小宇

你說要我喜歡你

抱歉我不行因為我有眼睛

OH 你好煩長的很奇怪

再跟著我就報警

仰慕我的人特別多

囉嗦的妳卻包容我的沉默

OH 沒理由跳耀的感受

在靠近左邊的胸口

OH 轉過頭有點失落

你怎麼消失在巷口

突然搞懂我的生活

早習慣你在左右

你要什麼就說

少了你一秒像一分鐘

現在會不會來不及

妳卻還在原地等著我

比誰都堅定

你要什麼就說

因為我一定盡了全力

希望你會覺得滿意

不滿意我改進我可以

把童話變成日記送給你

haha 我恋爱了！(:

my foot.

2007-03-26T00:04:00.000+08:00

these past few days have rather been normal. with the exception of business.

i've got no life.

and i love this song! (:

最愛還是你-Danson 唐禹哲

沒開口的話怎樣才能懂
我好想把畫面倒帶回頭
你留在我心中熟悉的表情
每個溫暖純白的記憶穿越了距離

擁擠的人潮沒有人知道
我偷偷想你嘴角就會笑
不要說對不起也不要問原因
就讓世界不停的向前別忘記從前

最愛還是你這是我的決定 (沒有人能代替)
像宇宙相對的星互相吸引慢慢就會靠近
還是要愛你時間會證明我愛你的勇氣
牽著你的手才知道是永久

擁擠的人潮沒有人知道
我偷偷想你嘴角就會笑
不要說對不起也不要問原因
就讓世界不停的向前別忘記從前

最愛還是你這是我的決定 (沒有人能代替)
像宇宙相對的星互相吸引慢慢就會靠近
還是要愛你時間會證明我愛你的勇氣
牽著你的手才知道是永久

這一次我放棄了所有
只為能與你相遇

最愛還是你這是我的決定 (沒有人能代替)
像宇宙相對的星互相吸引慢慢就會靠近
還是要愛你時間會證明我愛你的勇氣 (沒有人能代替)
牽著你的手才知道是永久 (一輩子不放手)

haha. should i start admire 唐禹哲 and his composing skills?

let's see.

2007-03-22T00:07:00.000+08:00

omg DAMN STRESSED ARHHHH.

JIAYOU SIEWYING.

YOU CAN DO IT.

ya i really hope i can.

2007-03-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

SYF IF ON 11 APRIL!!!!!

NYCB JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!!

and im so screwed for tmr's music assesment. ):

2007-03-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

AHHH EYE CANDDYYY!!!! R.CHORD AND WU CHUN!!!!!!

AND I MUST SAY!!!!

R.CHORD IS REALLY REALLY PRO! go his blog and see his "self-made" mv. REALLY PRO LAH OMG.

and TANK is undeniably pro. can sing can compose. AYEEE. WHY WE NOT LIKE THAT!!!!

i feel damn stressed now. got music assesment on wednesday AND I HAVENT BEEN TOUCHING THE PIANO FOR A MILLION YEARS OMG. HOWW..

and LIUYI! jiayou for HRM you know what lah huh! yes we should really get together someday and start brainstorming!!!! and can refer to SONGS BY TANK AND JJLIN for ideas. cause walao their chinese very cheem can!!!! and their songs very nice! then probably we can go out together someday! (:

AND YES siewying must jiayou for SYF!!!!! and BASS EXAMS!!!!!

walao damn stressed. ):

我们小时候-TANK

小时候我总会这样牵着你的手

只是盼望能够在你的身边守候

为了保护你不小心割破手指头

这个小伤却让你泪流心痛

长大后我们越来越远分隔地球的两边

何时才能够见面熟悉微笑的脸

回忆起我们小时候

闭上眼就能够感受

在我们心中慢慢流动的温柔

离开了我们小时候

现在你会不会想我

也许你找到一个人为你守候

我了了

小时候我总会这样牵着你的手
只是盼望能够在你的身边守候
为了保护你不小心割破手指头
这个小伤却让你泪流心痛

长大后我们越来越远分隔地球的两边
何时才能够见面熟悉微笑的脸

回忆起我们小时候
闭上眼就能够感受
在我们心中慢慢流动的温柔
离开了我们小时候
现在你会不会想我
也许你找到一个人为你守候
我了了

回忆起我们小时后

闭上眼就能够感受

站在窗前跟你说了晚安就走

离开了我们小时候

现在的你不在想我

这个时候

我了了

从此以后

我们两个再也没有见面了

怎么说

再见

AHHHH eye candiesssss!!!!! HAHA. (:

2007-03-15T22:17:00.000+08:00

OBS has really been an exciting journey for me and i still wish the whole experience could have lasted longer.

but all good things have to come to an end. their memories will always be in our heart forever.

im too tired and overwhelmed to blog everything in detail so i shall just blog about the important events.

DAY 1

so we arrived at pulau ubin IN A SPEED BOAT WAHA. so lucky my turn was the SPEEDY SPEED BOAT. and it kept bumping up and down and LIANG HUI kept screaming omg. haha!

group 5 was in CAMP ONE (OMG IM SO LUCKY PLEASE) and we were officially known as ELIZABETH CHOY and our instrcutor was TRACY!!! (: and our buddy watch was MARSHALL with their instructor ISKANDAR. (i think i got that wrong. :/) and in ELIZABETH was yihong, liang hui, bianca, jiahui, jacey, cheryl, sarah, tianhui, yisheng, shi ting, yu chi, ann jie, sijia, siying, yingling and i! (: 16 of us!

ANYWAY. we did admin stuff. like erm surrendering our wallets, money, food, and personal medication. then we assigned roles and there were like 16 roles all the 16 of us. and i was the DAY 4 IC. -.- and we went to our store to do our store check. tianhui and yisheng (the store ICs) assigned all of us stuff to clean and wash. then we put our stuff down in the store and changed into our kayaking clothes. then we went down to the kayak and boat center to get ready for our kayaking practice!

i partnered tianhui for kayaking and IT WAS A MISTAKE man. HAHA. okok fine. but during the kayak practice and the capsize drill, yihong and yuchi were supposed to save us when we capsize on purpose and vice versa. but when it was yihong and yuchi's turn to capsize, TIANHUI AND I CAPSIZE UNINTENTIONALLY. i cant remember what we were doing but we couldnt kayak together so we just kept drifting inner and inner towards the shore and mangrove where we both tried to turn and WE CAPSIZED. omg. so paiseh can! and yihong and yuchi were out at sea, thinking "what happened to tianhui and siewying arh?" then fortunately, bianca and cheryl were nearby and they rescued us. AND THEY THOUGHT WE CAPSIZED ON PURPOSE so they thought the whole thing was a drill. LIKE NO?! CAUSE I WAS PANICKING. like AHHHH THERE ARE JELLYFISHES AROUND THAT AREA??!!?!?!? and THE GROUND FEELS LIKE QUICKSAND?!?!?!?! HELPPP!!!!!!!

haha. okay come to think of it NOW, it seems funny. but at that point of time IT WASNT FUNNY OK!!! ):

oh and later we found out that yihong and sjia actually got stung by jellyfishes. ):

and we drifted really far out to sea. so we kayakked quite a distance back. then we went back to wash up and and bathe and EAT! haha. OMG OMG THE COOKHOUSE FOOD VERY NICE LAH!!!!! and YIHONG EAT LIKE ALOT ALOT ALOT and she's SO SKINNY!!!!! her metabolism rate is like SUPER SUPER high! cause when she eats she says she can feel the heat going out of her body. O.O OH MY. and she eat like 2 persons' share! omg im really amused. AND SHE'S SO FAIR. cause she protect herself until very very very good lah. abit kua1 zhang1 but ya! and the cookhouse food the DRINKS IS REALLY VERY NICE!!!! HAHA. and before supper we had this first aid briefing by NURSE JOE (?!?!?) and we did some day debreif on our journals and team journals. AND SUPPER WAS GREEN BEAN OR RED BEAN. they alternate every day. O.O

at night we pitched out tents in the ulu place near camp one and tianhui, yihong, yuchi, ann jie and i slept in it. tianhui was supposed to be our alarm clock with her watch but apparently it didnt work so we were almost late the next morning. AND YIHONG AND I KEPT TALKING ABOUT FAHRENHEIT AT NIGHT!!!!!! WE KEPT THINKING ABOUT WU ZUN AND DA DONG AND YA LUN hahahaha.

AND YOU KNOW!!!!! YIHONG ACTUALLY CRIED IN THE SEA during our kayak practice that day CAUSE SHE MISSED 花样少年少女!!!!!!!! omg 太夸张了吧!!!!!!!!! haha can go be some actress. CRY VERY EASILY. (:

DAY 2

rushed day. cant really remember what exactly happened cause everything was in a rushed. only remembered we had pt in the morning outside the mph and the pt was super lame lah! got the jumping jacks and stuff haha! and then they requested for us to do NAN ZHONG QUAN!!! omg horror! it was all because of Andy; apparently he's from HC and then he told the instructors so the instructors asked us to do it. -.-

then breakfast in the morning at the cookhouse WHERE YIHONG APPARENTLY TOLD THE CHEF SHE WAS COLLECTED 2 PERSONS SHARE FOR HER FRIEND AND HERSELF BUT ATE THE WHOLE THING ALL BY HERSELF. haha! belaying school in the morning with marshall and we played some team games with marshall. There's four people, ABCD, the assistant, the belayer, the climber, and the deadweight in belaying. BELAYING IS FUNN. but i hate being the climber CAUSE IM AFRAID OF HEIGHTS. bianca cried also cause of FEAR OF HEIGHTS oh my. then we went to climb the INDIANA. ISKANDAR WAS SUPER LAME. he and sandy kept quarelling AND HE KEPT TRICKING US!!! SO MEAN!!!! we took turns to climb the indiana but i didnt get to climb. cause halfway through, IT RAINED. and we werent allowed to climb due to lightning risk. so we went back to our store and packed for trekking! with all the food and yada yada. then we trekked to camp 2!!!! our bagss felt DAMN HEAVY LAH. and we were only trekking for like 25 minutes!!! omg! why like that!

and once we reached camp2, WE ALL BEGAN TO TREASURE CAMP1. oh my. CAMP 2 IS SO ULU!!!! then we settled dowwn and started to unpack our food and COOK!!!! yihong, yuchi, tianhui and i were one team and yihong and i cooked instant noodles with sardines and mushrooms! (: while yuchi and tianhui went to pitch our tents. AND only YIHONG had a WORKABLE TORCH LAH. wth! i had one torch BUT IT WAS TOO DIM SO WE COULDNT SEE ANYTHING!!!

after dinner we went to bathe and wash outr mess tins.

OMG THE TOILETS ARE A HORROR. tianhui and i decided to bathe in the less smelly toilet BUT THE QUEUE WAS SO LONG and before we could even go in and bathe, WE WERE ALREADY LATE. so tianhui and i shared a toilet AND WE DIDNT EVEN BATHE PROPERLY CAN. we just soapped our hair and rinse our body lah. then we went downstairs to our tents and we saw wild dogs. and tianhui FREAKKED OUT. aye. then we brought our bags upstairs under shelter. AND TIANHUI AND I LOST OUR LIFEJACKETS. OMG. then we did some small and short debreif at the mph, and then SLEEPP.

DAY 3

ann jie was our alarm clock this time round BUT WE WERE LATE AGAIN!!!! this time our whole watch , with marshall WAS LATE. for 19 minutes. then we did our morning pt. ISKANDAR VERY LAME LAH. played some lame EVOLUTION and other games and we ran "5 rounds" HAHA. omg. SPASTIC.

then we had BREAKFAST!!!! omg yihong and yuchi were like forcing everyone to eat! we opened up the digestive biscuits and finished up one whole loaf of bread. omg yihong really can eat lah. she ate like 9 pieces of bread (around there bah) and finished up like one-third or more of the digestive biscuits. O.O

then we had our land expedition. plotted our 4 checkpoints and cheryl, bianca and lianghui did our pacing. then we set off from camp 2 to our first chekpoint. IT WAS NEXT TO A GRAVE LAH. THANKS ARH. then our next checkpoint was next to the german girl shrine. and we blurly walked all the way in and came out and said there were no checkpoint. and it was right at the entrance. they all tie the checkpoints behind the trees lah! so irritating. then our bags didnt feel as heavy as the day before. and our third checkpoint was on top of the quarry hill!!! the view from the top was so nice!!!!! (: could see singapore's changi from the top and the quarry was so nice! the water was so blue lah! not like the sea! FRESHWATER! haha. then we rested there for awhile before continuing our land expedition to our campsite.

OHOH! then we saved all our prunes and raisins for poor yihong cause SHE HAD LOW-SUGAR LEVEL IN HER BLOOD. O.O i very much suspect that the reason why she doesnt get attacked by mozzies lah!

when we reached our campsite, we pitched our tents, put down our stuff and went back to the quarry with our lifejackets. then we had some raft building competition with marshall. tianhui and i didnt know how to tie the knots of the raft so we just SAT DOWN and STARTED CONCOCTING THIS STUPID SONG to PROMOTE our raft HAHA!

it went something like :

row row row your raft,
gently down the quarry!
if you sit, on our raft,
you dont have to worry!

why why why do you
not have to worry!
because our raft can float
stably like a boat!

if you're still not convinced,
come and sit on our raft!
because we can ensure you
a lifetime ride on our craft!

so come join us now
stable and still can float!
in our very special raft,
the elizabeth satay boat!

haha. waliao so lame. and our whole watch did that to promote our raft. then we sort of bribed tracy and iskandar about our raft and bianca was like "THE ROPES ARE SPECIALLY IMPORTED FROM SWITZERLAND!!!! " O.O okay.... HAHA.

THANK YOU ALL THE NPCC PEOPLE AND GUIDES PEOPLE WHO ARE SO PRO IN ROPES! and ALL THOSE WHO HELPED IN THE RAFT BUILDING! (unlike people like tianhui and i). SPECIAL THANKS TO : SIJIA! SHITING! LIANGHUI! SARAH! CHERYL! BIANCA! YISHENG! YINGLING! and ALL THE OTHERS WHO HELPED BUT I FORGOT TO MENTION! (:

though we didnt get to launch our raft in the quarry, tracy and iskandar still let us have our quarry dip!!!! (: OMG THE WATER WAS SO CLEANN. and we sort of bathed inside the quarry! cause there was no toilets at that campsite. IT WAS NEAR THE SEA LAH. and the salty water smell was damn strong. and we felt damn clean after the "bath". (:

then when we went back to our tents to change, WE FOUND OUT THAT WE GOT ATTACKED BY ANTS. OMG OMG OMG. marshall also got invaded by ants. AND MY BAG WAS very very BADDDD. i got damn freaked out and i was like "omg of all thing WHY ANTS!?!?!" then tianhui, yihong, yuchi and annjie were all very nice and they were like helping me to clear the tents and the tarp of the ants. and TRACY HELPED ME CLEAR MY BAG OF ANTS LAH. omg i felt very malu but ya WHY SHE SO NICE!!! haha. and after that yihong and yuchi went into the tent to change first then tianhui annjie and i went in to change the tent.

AND I REALISED I LOST ALOT OF STUFF. cause tracy sort of like emptied all my belongings on the ground and all over when getting my bag rid of ants. so tianhui and annjie helped me like find my stuff outside while i waited inside the tent and OMG THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH. i would have really broke down and cried without you guys.

and i really did break down later in the night, when we finished changing anfd tianhui and i went to find yihong and yuchi for our dinner, which they had already started to cook. amd I FOUND ZHENGYAN!!! and when i saw her i really broke down and cried. and THANKYOU ZHENGYAN for comforting me!!!! im so sorry i just broke down like that! =x

then we found yihong and yuchi, they had already finished cooking their share lah! which was instant noodles with currychicken. and tianhui and my share was instant noodles with anchovies! omg SHOIK. but tianhui couldnt take it cause it's very spicy so she had abit of ours, abit of cambell soup. and we couldnt start the fire cause the sea breeze was very strong. then we found the whole watch at the foot of the slope having some sort of common stove and we were like AHHH WAIT FOR US!!! and tracy helped us do the cooking while we all started eating hungrily. omg very nice!!! and then we went to the sea to wash up.

and tianhui and i started to feel abut emo and she suddenly exploded in from of me i got damn shocked lah! first time i saw tianhui so erm bao4 li4. haha! but then we started shouting all our troubles to the sea!!!! haha! and i felt abit better. AND OH OH. the night sky there VERY PRETTY!!!! (: the moon very bright and SO MANY STARS!!!!!!!

then we went back to our campsite and FOUND OUT THAT WE GOT ATTACKED BY ANTS AGAIN! by that time i was really like freakked out liao and i kept screaming lah. thanks to yihong and tianhui and ann jie and yuchi who all helped calm me down and get my things rid of ants. then we went to sleep! i was squashed between yuchi and tianhui lah! haha no lah. but i was sleeping on 3 big rocks lah. so i shifted further down and i was sleeping with my legs bent in the air and tianhui was like "eh siewying! why you sleep so low?"

AND SUDDENLY from 1-3 am at night the kampong near our campsite (i think it was the kelongs lah) STARTED PLAYING SOME LOUD INDIAN/MALAY MUSIC. at first i thought it was the morning prayer which we always hear at 5 every morning so i thought it was morning and i was like "eh need to get up liao isit?" then tianhui was like "ann jie what time isit?" and ann jie was like "eh? 1.45 only what." -.- OMG. wth! and then i heard TECHNO MUSIC. so HMM IT ISNT THE MORNING PRAYER WHICH WE ALWAYS HEAR. (btw, lynn says the morning prayer which we always hear is from malaysia. O.O really? so loud?) haha. god sarah's tent funnier lah. cause they're the tent next door and at around 2.30 sarah said her tent woke up and got out. then they found out that the loud music was from the kampong. -.- then they face north-west from our tent and saw some red red sky thingy behind the hills so they thought THAT WAS THE SUN RISING. and they went to our tent and asked yihong what the time was.

yihong: "eh annjie! what's the time now?"
annjie: "eh walao eh. 2.45 only lah! go and sleep!"
the person from their tent who asked yihong i forgot who: "?!?!? 2.45 only?! oi! 2.45 only go and sleep!"

haha! then cheryl and bianca said that they planned to sleep with their legs up in the air because of the ants lah! and lianghui was up from 1 something to 3 COUNTING THE NUMBER OF SONGS PLAYED because:

lianghui: "i thought it was the instructors testing us what! i thought they test us how many songs were played and so i counted lorh!"

-.-" omg.

tianhui pro-er lah!

tianhui: "eh siewying you know how i slept? i was trying to concentrate at the cricket sounds and then i fell asleep lah!"

OMG TIANHUI YOU'RE DAMN PRO. hahaha!

and i knew shiting and yisheng they all were afraid that there will be a wild boar attack lah. and they're like next to the bushes leading to the forest!!!! haha! but i thik marshall got a wild boar attack. and they shifted their campsite which was originally near us because of the ants lah. WE'RE SO LUCKY haha!

ohoh. and we found out the next morning that we were actually sleeping in the tent WITH AN ENORMOUS BEETLE LAH WTH.

DAY 4

woke everyone up sucessfully at like 5.30? supposed to report at 6.30. then we quickly packed and unpitched our tents and packed our bags for trekking back to camp 1. have to thank everyone for their cooperation in packing up especially people like yingling, sarah, bianca, cheryl, lianghui and of course my team. thanks for lightening my workload as a day IC.

then we had our breakfast and i was like bursting lah! omg! and we had peanut butter biscuits with BREAD.. and YIHONG FINISHED ONE WHOLE ROLL OF PEANUT BUTTER BISCUITS and she was like: "eh why you all never eat huh!" HAHA you also never tell us to eat you just eat yourself! HAHA no lah! dont be angry okay! j.k.j.k only! (:

then went with yihong to report to tracy. we helped to pick up the trash around AND OUR TRASH (which we actually hanged up one lianghui's tent) GOT ATTACKED BY ANTS. omg i was damn freaked out. then sarah and sijia went to drown the whole trash bag with water so that HOPEFULLY he ants will drown AND DIEEEE but it didnt really work. so tracy got us another trash bag with we deposited the trash bag and tied the whole thing to one of our camping sticks and yingling and tianhui carried it! yay! then yihong and i were navigators while sarah, cheryl, bianca and lianghui were sweepers! and WE SET OFF FOR CAMP 1!!!

omg i really couldnt have done it without yihong's help for that day! cause i have ABSOLUTE 0/ NIL/ NO sense of DIRECTION AT ALL. haha. and yihong was the one navigating us the whole time lah. omg i was damn lousy. ): and HAHA YIHONG AND I KEPT TALKING ABOUT FAHRENHEIT HAHA!!!! and omg i was damn high lah! and yihong told me all her experiences for qian1 chang4 hui4 and i was like OMG WU CHUN!!!! haha. and i think i shocked yihong with my craziness when i suddenly screamed "AHHH WU ZUN!!!" in the middle of our trekking haha! sorry sorry! very high mah!

then we finally managed to reach camp 1! and we went to the MPH and put aside our lifejackets and bottles and caps and blah blah blah. and put our bags in the store. unpacked abit first then went back to the mph to sort out our lunch (which we were supposed to have on the sea eventually) and waited for marshall to come. then tracy came and said that we needed our ponchos also. so liang hui cheryl sarah bianca jacey and i went back to get the ponchos from our store. and i was like "tracy, can we have more food? our watch not enough food!" and tracy was like "HUH! like that not enough food! you know all the other watches all say too much food!" HAHA YIHONG LAH. haa no lah. our watch just kept stuffing ourselves with food during the trek so that our bags will be lighter mah! HAHA. then she came back with an extra chocolate bun for each of us! YAY!

then we had kayaking briefing with marshall. and haha! the drawings so cute!!!

then yihong and i were navigators (actually mainly her lah. im just in the same kayak as her) then mel and guen were port while liang hui and sijia were starboard and valerie and her partner were the sweepers at the back.

WE KAYAKKED FOR 3 AND A HALF HOURS. towards katam island (was it katam island? i forgot what it was called.), around it, and back to camp 1! haha yihong and i were very blur lah! we almost went another round katam island! SORRY EVERYBODY SORRY SORRRY. ):

at the start of the sea expedition, yihong started to feel sea-sick liao lah. and she started to peel the orange and stuck the peels inside her nose. then she turned around to face cheryl and bianca (who are on our right) and they burst into peals of laughter lah! omg the sight was funny but it was like necessary? i didnt want our navigator to like puke into the sea and then our sweeper will be like "eh what's that yellow yellow thing in the sea arh?"

AND YAY! KAYAKING IS FUN I TELL YOU!!! maybe because i dont suffer from sea-sickness or muscle aches BUT YA! DAMN FUN I TELL YOU!!! actually i felt damn high during kayaking despite all the shouting behind us. haha. weird. and we saw flying fishes!!!!!! HAHA. ok not funny.

and when we finally finished our sea expedition, we rushed up to shore and under lianghui's "commands" we efficiently beached everyone upshore and washed the kayaks. (: although some of us really broke down under the pressure but ya! we still managed to do it right!!! (:

and must say guen and sijia very efficient! seeing that they were the two main people washing, scrubbing, see-sawing and carrying the kayaks to the racks! (: but then everyone went to help so we were more effiecient.

OMG YIHONG REALLY PROTECTIVE OF HERSELF LAH. you she's like still so white after the whole OBS experience and she really like make sure she has enough sunblock and protection on. omg im amazed. the first time i see someone more protective of herself than shihui!!!

then after the whole washing of kayaks, we went to "all for one and one for all" and sat in a circle and WE HAD OUR LUNCH. (: then cheryl and liang hui and bianca AND SARAH were all ery amused by yihong and her weird habits! and they were like talking about hana kimi i think or fahrenheit then lianghui was like "yihong, dont be sad hor. " AND YIHONG CRIED. omg. then i was sitting next to guen and !!!! SHE WAS VERY HIGH. O.O then she was TRYING TO SHOW ALL OF US OREO MUSH WITH HER RETAINERS omgg. and they were like going like "*cough*LOSER*cough*"-.- ayeee.

so anyway, tracy and iskandar came back for debreifing and we were supposed to tell them one word about what we were feeling so i went like "TIRED...." cause i felt damn heavy with my drenched clothes lah. and my stomach ached with laughter. then tracy decided to ask us to do a nanyang cheer and lianghui, bianca and melanie readily came out to lead us. then i felt super high so i was like doing "what say" very loudly then guen was like "woah siewying you're very high. you're damn high." HAHA.

then tracy and iskandar gave us a reward WHICH WAS JETTY JUMP. which was supposed to be a tradition. he was like forcing everyone to go when most of us didnt want to CAUSE UNLIKE THE QUARRY WHICH WAS FRESHWATER, THIS WAS SALTWATER WITH JELLYFISHES FLOATING ABOUT. then i was quite reluctant to go at first because i was really very tired, but in the end i still went.

AND TIANHUI FREAKED ME OUT AGAIN. when she was really like going to break down. cause she really didnt want to do the jetty jump. i was super freaked out okay! cause i never saw this side of tianhui before! omg! tianhui! dont do that again ok!

then before i jumped, iskandar was like asking me "what will you miss about OBS?" and i was like "KAYAKING!!!!!" AND I JUMPED.

not as bad as i thought it would be, though i did get satwater in my eyes, it didnt seem as scary as it seems. almost like diving in a swimming pool, or even better with the lifejacket on. (: then when everyone finished jumping, (even yihong and tianhui) WE SAW A JELLYFISH FLOATING NEAR THE JETTY. wth!

then we went back up to BATHE FINALLY IN PROPER TOILETS. and then we went down for dinner! WOAH THE FOOD DAMN NICE HAHA. and the syrup drink was shoik! and haha! yihong and i were eating with sarah, lianghui bianca and cheryl and omg they're damn funny lah!!! sarah was like: "you know, my brother and i used to eat ants? cause they kept biting us so we wanted revenge so we ate them."

O.O OMG.

and we said lots of other dumb stuff!!! and we kept laughing our heads off like nobody's business! and we continued laughing for like half an hour and until yihong suddenly said: "you know, we've been laughing for the past half an hour and we havent even started EATING. the only thing we did was SARAH gave me her meat! and THAT'S IT!!!"

and we continued to laugh. -.- ok nvm. haha! and we kept provoking yihong. CAUSE SHE LIKE YA LUN! AND CHERYL AND I LOVE WUZUN! AND ALL THREE OF US LOVE JOE CHENG!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MADNESSS.

then we went down to mph for debreif. and we had a round of sharing about the past 4 days. (: and i almost broke down again while sharing i dont know why. ):

then we went back to our stores to do our store check. at first we were like missing alot of thing and marshall was like MISSING A TENT. O.O but then nehru (the watch using the sotre nextdoor) sorted stuff with us and we got everything in check! we didnt lose anything! (:

and omg nehru is like pro? they were made to memorise all their stuff's serial numbers lah. so they can like easily identify what's their stuff.

then we also cleaned out our tents for the east coast obs campers to use and tianhui and yisheng actually delegated like 6-9 people to clean the tents, but when we went to the mph, we found out that one of the tents was still infested with ants. -.- then tracy was quite dissappointed with us but she told us to go and sleep and to settle the tent problem tmr.

and we slept in the mph! without tents! and it was very cold at night. tianhui annjie and i kept waking up and annjie managed to get another poncho from another watch while i used my sleeping bag.

DAY 5

woke up like 5.30? cant remember. but i remember we were one of the last watches to wake up. went back up to our store and did our store check again. realised we were missing a bottle then bianca and i went with guen and yuanyi and sandy back to their store to get the bottle since they had one extra. and they still hadnt found their tent. omg so ke lian. really pity them cause we found out they were up very early and guen was really like a walking zombie lah. :/

then we went back to have our morning pt. and we did 10 sets of the OBS jumping jacks and 5 sets of the morning routine. and they invited hern hern up on stage to lead us in the nanzhong quan AGAIN. -.- then we still didnt manage to settle the tent problem. so tracy was like dissappointed in us again. anyway, we went up to have our breakfast. and yihong was like "UNCLE! LAST DAY LIAO! PLEASE BE MORE GENEROUS AND GIVE ME MORE FOOD BAHHH. " haha! and it was still not enough lorh. she went back for a 2nd serving! O.O and we found out that SARAH HAD BIG MUSCLES ON HER ARMS. omg scary.

then we went back to our stores and did our store check again. and tracy came to check everything. aye we basically slacked around and talked about FANRENHEIT (ahhh!!!!!) AND WU ZUN (ahhh!!!!) the whole time tracy was checking our store. haha. omg feng diao. <3 color="#3366ff">Iskandar was saying we have to be quick while buying shirts and he was talking about how women shopped. Like "does the green shirt or the blue shirt look nicer?" and then he talked about the debate over green and blue shirts and then in the end, you buy both. And Melanie was like "EH YEAH YEAH HOW YOU KNOW ONE!!"

omg melanie arh!!! haha

then we went and did our trust dive. no one managed to hit the bell but it was fun anyway. haha. then we went back up to the mph and did our debrief for the whole obs. then everyone was like very sad cause OBS WAS GOING TO BE OVER IN LIKE 2 HOUR'S TIME. ): and we did our own journalling and stuff. THEN WE WENT FOR LUNCH!

and YIHONG expectedly went to get more food again. haha! and OMG. the food was the best lah! damn nice please! haha.

then we went back to mph again and tracy gave out our stuff like photos and certs and admin stuff again. and then we sort of took photos and then assemble as the whole cohort at the mph again.

and OBS was officilly over and they dispatched us. then yihong and i were like "fighting" for the speed boat back to singapore! OMG VERY FUN! haha. and we really managed to get the speed boat! (:

and back in singapore, we saw lee shan shan and we were like OMG OBS VERY FUNNN. (:
and on the bus with yihong, YIHONG STARTED CRYING AGAIN. omg! and i felt damn depressed CAUSE I MISSED PULAU UBIN AND OBS AND TRACY AND ISKANDAR AND EVERYONE ELSE ALREADY! and the whole bus went mad lah! everyone was like "OMG OMG I SEE MRT LEH. MRT!!!! OMGOMG. THERE GOT FLATS!!!! OMG GOT PROPER ROAD LEH. I SEE CIVILISATION!!!" and all the time i was like " i want to go back to pulau ubin!!!!" T.T

and thinking back, OBS really wouldnt have been fun without everyone there. and I MISS TRACY AND ISKANDAR AND CAMP 1 AND EVERYTHING THERE.

cause at pulau ubin, all you have to worry about is whether you can live through today with enough food or enough energy to go through the day's events and activities.

in singapore, things like "homework", "exams" and "study" suddenly become apparent in your own dictionary.

ELIZABETH CHOY!!! (: tres lovess; <3>

omg i cant believe i finally finished that post. ok sorry for not replying tags! sorry sorry!

TAG REPLIES

LIUYI: LIUYI!!!!!! haha! havent finished our task yet! zhi dui ni you gan jue and shan hu hai leh! and composing!!! AHHH you must help me I SUCK AT COMPOSING. ): and HAHA! ALOT OF PEOPLE LIKE DA SHU! you just didnt know. and I MUST SAY HE'S SUPER PRO!!! and OMG YOUR BLOGSKIN ARH. you really feng over da shu lorh.

LYNN: haha! I WANT THE MIDI FILES YOU GUYS USED FOR COUNCIL INVEST!!!!! ):

WENQI: wheregot copy you lorh!!!!! I LIKED WUZUN ONE OK! YOU GO AWAY! you got your SHIN!!!! haha!

YIXIAN: HAHA! i know what you mean! omg MADNESSS. (:

PASSERBY: thanks! (:

YIHUI: haha! alot of people like tang yu zhe also ok! haha another eye candy! <3>

---: erm ya. may i know who are you?

WYQUIN: AHHH! WYQUIN WE MISSED YOU!!!! we're dying for syf now!!! ):

SLUG: HELLO! what are you doing arh! during our obs YOU STAY AT HOME AND SLACK RIGHT! horhor.

EENING: YA! i miss obs too!!! ): omg very sad.

SHAUN: o.O erm hello?

PEI SAN: NOOOOOOO!!!!!!! WU ZUN IS SHUAI OK. ):

HAN SHENG: haha it's not called anti-ri lah. it's just anti-social o.O erm i dunno. :/ but OMG WE SCREWED OUR EXCHANGE TODAY!!!! ):

2007-03-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

oh god.

we've got a band exchange on thursday at S.J.I. and R.I.'s going.

): oh noooo why like that!!!!!

HAHA.

2007-03-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

im TIRED.

STOP IT cause IT DOESNT WORK.

restrained. exhausted.

it's living pain.

2007-03-12T22:32:00.000+08:00

我一直都在 - 林稷安/程于倫

遥望着你背影　有孤單太蒼白　
我多麼想陪着你　走過人山人海
當天空變灰白　你的憂傷澎湃　
我多麼想走近你　緊鎖的心海

我一直都在　你身後等待　
等你有一天　回過頭看我
我的笑送給你希望你快樂　
妳的難過都給我
關於你的一切我都好好收藏着

我一直都在　你身後等待　
等你有一天　能感覺到我
就算我在你世界渺小像一顆塵埃
我也會給你我所有的光和熱

當天空變灰白　你的憂傷澎湃　
我多麼想走近你　緊鎖的心海

我一直都在　你身後等待　
等你有一天　回過頭看我
我的笑送給你希望你快樂　
妳的難過都給我
關於你的一切我都好好收藏着

我一直都在　你身後等待　
等你有一天　能感覺到我
就算我在你世界渺小像一顆塵埃
我也會給你我所有的光和熱

我鼓起勇氣吶喊　你要聽的見
我不許你再孤單　要你擁抱我給的溫暖

我一直都在　你身後等待　
等你有一天　回過頭看我
我的笑送給你希望你快樂　
妳的難過都給我
關於你的一切我都好好收藏着

我一直都在　你身後等待　
等你有一天　能感覺到我
就算我在你世界渺小像一顆塵埃
我也會給你我所有的光和熱

这几天我的心情真不好。
想着，想着，难过的回忆又浮现了。
我想哭，但是哭不出来。
眼泪都干了。

我很累。我很想睡。
但是每次睡觉前就会想起那个梦。
那个是佛实现的梦。
那个恐怕永远都不会实现的梦。
我好像体会到梦里的感觉，
好像每一天每一秒都在做那个美丽的梦。
但是，别人都说做人要脚踏实地，
那我的梦是佛还是一个梦？

神阿。
让我哭一下好吗？
不能苦的感觉真难受啊。
我快受不了了啦！

2007-03-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

嵐

作詞：陳信延　
作曲：Tank　
編曲：呂紹淳

還記得那夜青春最初一頁　
眼前的世界　看起來快毀滅
你在我身邊　看著屋簷　像末日的雨天
倘若雨大一些　是否靠近一點

你沒有察覺　心跳特別強烈　
颱風把沉默　吹襲了一整夜
明明有感覺　可惜時間　溜出了我指尖
回頭只看得見　滿地回憶的碎片

答案一直到今天　才在我心中浮現　
愛情曾出現　那一瞬間　我們都沒發現　
那雨勢一直到今天　還下在我心裡面　
淋濕了雙眼　事過境遷　才清晰地看見　
你的臉

後來那幾年　當然也有雨天　
我開始學會　等雨後的晴天
誰在我身邊　渡過長夜　任雨點再傾瀉
卻再也找不回　當時心動感覺　

你是否偶爾　像我靜靜懷念
嵐一樣的愛　傾盆的那一年
如果那場雨　再度襲捲　重新再淋一遍
我一定抱住你　絕對不讓你走遠

答案一直到今天　才在我心中浮現　
愛情曾出現　那一瞬間　我們都沒發現　
那雨勢一直到今天　還下在我心裡面　
淋濕了雙眼　事過境遷　才清晰地看見　
你的臉

i feel sad now. ):

I MISS OBS!!!!

and i miss that...

2007-03-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

today was SO SCREWED.

anyway. im going to say goodbye to civilised singapore and hello to little pulau ubin.

wow.

OBS!!!!

I WILL SURVIVE OBS. haha.

anyway!

TANG YU ZHE!!!! (:

just some eye candy for yihui and her friend.

2007-03-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

i reckon that if i dont post today, i wont be able to until the end of obs.

by the way, OBS!!!! IT'S THIS COMING WEEK! ahhh! i dont know whether to be excited or scared or nervous! :/ ok random.

since OBS is coming, it marks the end of this term, and means 12 MORE PRACTICES TO SYF.

omg SIEWYING PLEASE PRACTICE HARDER. YES CAUSE YOU WANT A GOLD WITH HONOURS FOR SYF.

and yes i need to practice for BASS EXAMS this year. ):

and this weekend is also THE LAST EPISODE OF HANA KIMI IN TAIWAN!!!! omg. episode 15 is like so kuku. HAHA. so weird!

it also marks the beginning of 热情终夏！omg 我的天！有郑元畅!!!!!! HEART THROB PLEASE.

AHHHH!!!! EYE CANDY!!!!!!! (: madnesss. <3>

and while the whole school is in the HANA KIMI CRAZE, i realised that ALOT OF PEOPLE LIKE WU ZUN!!!! 为什么这样！！！！为何要跟我抢！！！！！我不要！！！！ now dont have the special "omg i'm in love with this person" feeling you know!!!! ):

but it's ok. I STILL LIKE WU ZUN. (:

and liuyi can have her DA SHU all to herself!!! (: haha so cute!

haha. ok. enough picture spam. I SHALL GO AND GET MYSELF MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY PREPARED FOR OBS.

YES I CAN DO IT! (:

wish me luck!

and im still THINKING OF MY DREAM!!!

2007-02-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh EYE CANDY! (:

im freaking out for tmr.

im weeping for IH. ):

and im wondering if my dream will ever come true.

2007-02-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

ok shall blog about invest.

rawrrrr WE GOT TO SIT IN THE HALL!!! we could have gotten to sit in the LECTURE THEATRE!!!! rawrrr! sec 3s you know!!!

but ANYWAY.

guess it was all very nice! and grand! the performance was ok! (: and the SONGS FOR THE MONTAGE!!! OMG. they played "say you love me" and “非你莫属" !!!!! and jasmine and i went crazy during band because of that! AHHHHHHH SO NICE!!!!! (:

ok im dying for IH. IM OFFF.

2007-02-25T00:19:00.000+08:00

懂了-TANK

不該再浪費力氣　
做些迂迴的事情
用眼神指尖對你輕聲細語　

你沒有別的表情
總微笑轉過頭去　
輕易解開我傳說的謎

如果這樣還算不是有默契　
至少能代表我們都夠聰明

不用再問為什麼　
不用再說些什麼　
暸了　
懂了　
我們都一直愛著
不用再擔心什麼　
不用再害怕什麼　
累了　
睡了　
牽著手一起入夢

一直說不準天氣　
錯過期待的憧憬
每在彩虹出現那刻說愛你　

你一定善解人意
知道我想的事情　
所以下雨不急忙回去

如果這樣還算不是有默契　
至少能代表我們都夠聰明

不用再問為什麼　
不用再說些什麼　
暸了　
懂了　
我們都一直愛著
不用再擔心什麼　
不用再害怕什麼　
累了　
睡了　
牽著手一起入夢

不用再問為什麼　
不用再說些什麼　
瞭了　
懂了　
我們都一直愛著
不用再擔心什麼　
不用再害怕什麼　
累了　
睡了　
牽著手一起入夢

2007-02-24T19:01:00.000+08:00

im tired.

sucky IH is killing all my brain cells. RAWRR. ):

and when life is just oh-so-mundane.

2007-02-19T12:53:00.000+08:00

Coming around again by Simon Webbe

I been sitting in the darkness

But the sunlight’s creeping in

Now the ice is slowly melting

In my soul and in my skin

All the good times my friend

Are coming around again

Oh yeah

I been thinking reminiscing

Of better nights and better days

Hiding in a refuge

Of memories I've made
I got a feeling within

It’s coming around again

[CHORUS]

[It's coming around again]

We been so long waiting

For the all time high

We got a damn good reason

To put your troubles aside

And all your winter sorrows

Hang ‘em out to dry

Throw it away
Gotta throw it away

All the colorful days my friend

Are coming around again

That’s right

Yeah yeah

Mmm

I got someone waiting for me

It's been so long since we met

And I may not be your salvation

But I’ll offer nonetheless

And if like me u wanna take that chance

It's coming around again

Ooh yeah

[CHORUS]

[It's coming around again]
We been so long waiting
For the all time high
We got a damn good reason
To put your troubles aside
And all your winter sorrows
Hang ‘em out to dry
Throw it away

Gotta throw it away
All the colorful days my friend
Are coming around again

Yeah yeah

Mmm

I can feel a change of fortune

No more riding on my love

Feel the weight is off my shoulders

As my feet become unstuck

And all the good times on which we do depend

Oh it’s coming around again

We been so long waiting

For the all time high

We got a damn good reason

To put your troubles aside

And all your winter sorrows

Hang ‘em out to dry

Throw it away
Gotta throw it away

All the colorful days my friend

Are coming around again

i like this song!!! it gives you the "it's a brand new day!" feeling! (:

ok ANYWAY,

friday we had cny celebrations in school. we had the calligraphy hui chun thing. and kristie and i ended up drawing on the red paper cause we gave up writing since it was very pressurising to write next to people like peisan and ping hui whose words were like omg super nice. haha. their words damn nice lah! and for the mini concert, bixuan and i were backstage helpers. in the end we only help to bring out the prize-giving table lah. -.-

supposed to go RGPS with yihui and sok but i didnt go in the ned cause i had dental at 1.45 and i took one hour to get home and o hour to get from home to national dental center. so.

but halfway back, my dad called to say that he'll be fetching me. -.- omg waste my time.

and in the end, we went there late. and we had to wait for 2 hours before it was my turn. omg super pissed. and when i went there, she said I HAD TO DO A SURGERY TO PUT IMPLANTS IN MY GUM.

and it's not implants for my teeth, it's like SCREWS to help align my teeth.

omg i almost fainted.

anyway, went to far east after dental and met kristie, roslaind, ping hui and melanie. mel had already bought a dress and we went off hunting for shoes.

kept passing mondo which was super crowded and we attempted alot of times to shop in there and with the last attempt, ros, kristie, pinghui and i all bought a pair of shoes. kristie and ros bought the same pair of pointies while pinghui and i bought the same pair of tipy-toes.

so pretty!!!! but it's DAMN HIGH. ): and it's really painful for the toes!!!!

then ros and pinghui and melanie each bought a vintage blouse/dress (: haha. melanie and i agree that we should come shopping with kristie, pinghui and ros more often cause we have no sense of fashion at all. =x

yesterday was the first day of new year, and i spent the whole of it walking around in my new tipy-toes.

OMG MADNESS. it's DAMN PAINFUL.

and today we're spending it home, quiet without any vistors cause MY SISTERS ARE HAVING EXAMS ON FRIDAY. -.- so im watching stuff on crunchyroll.com. like 蔷薇之恋!!! omg!!! I MISS JOE CHENG. heartthrob. (:

AND AND AND !!!! TMR AT 1.00 P.M., HUA YANG CAST AND ZHENG YUAN CHANG ARE STARRING ON SOME CHINESE NEW YEAR THING THING!!!! OMGOMGOMG I WANT TO WATCH!!!! (:

ok tonight got hua yang. and listening to qiang wei zhi lian's themesong now, it really gives me the sugaaaarrrrr russsshhhh.

p.s. i slept like 10 hours last night. woah SHUANGGGG. (:

High by Lighthouse Family

When youre close to tears remember
Some day itll all be over
One day were gonna get so high
And though its darker than december
Whats ahead is a different colour
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
Youll always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Dont you think its time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day were gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high...

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

2007-02-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

posted yesterday:

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

though it's abit late now. it should be:

HAPPY TOTAL DEFENCE/ POST-VALENTINE'S DAY!!!! (:

thanks alot to those who gave me all the flowers and chocolates and sweets and notes!!! (: i feel so loved! haha!

anyway. TESTS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!! ok there's still music and IH test, BUT STILL. (: and CHINESE NEW YEAR IS HERE!!!! (:

AND AND AND AND!

花样少年少女 IS SCREENING ON CHANNEL U AT 7 P.M. TMR!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHH IM SO EXCITED!!! FINALLY GOT EYE CANDY. (:

WU ZUN!!!!! <3<3

and i need to remind JASMINE TAN to lend me her 恶作剧之吻!!!!! i dont care i want to watch during chinese new year!!!!!!!!! (: yay i want to fall in love with 郑元畅 all over again! (:

OK IM MUNCHING ON JASMINE'S CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES NOW AND THEY'RE REALLY NICE AND CHOCOLATEY! (:

anyway, we had our SCH practice today. and i think it's quite screwed! we had only 1hour and 15 minutes in the concert hall and THE STUPID LORRY/TRUCK DRIVER WHO WAS DRIVING THE TRUCK/LORRY WITH OUR PERCUSSION INSTRUMENTS IN IT!!! omg damn pissed. but i dont think anyone would be more pissed then the percussion people. like wth! and the driver didnt even say anything. he just said: "why all your instruments so big and heavy one arh!"

@#$%^&#%$

anyway, ROSALIND, GUEN YIK AND I TIED 2 PONYTAILS TODAY! (: cause we all agreed to tie 2 today but melanie didnt!!! ): and kristie and coreen tied 2 too!!! (: haha! I WANT PHOTOS ROS! (:

the only bad thing was that i was dared by GOUJUN to like tie 2 for music?! so i did. and NOTHING HAPPENED. HAHA. so failure. ok nvm.

today:

I MISSED THE FIRST EPISODE HANA KIMI!!!! omg. ): but anyway, i was too depressed to enjoy it if i was watching it. cause of some talk in school. i dont why it just made me feel damn pissed and depressed. like WHY DID THINGS TURN OUT THIS WAY?

and worse still, i still dont know what's the outcome of my grandma. and WHY IS SHE LIVING ALONE IN THAT HOUSE WITH THE MAID AND THE SPY CAMERA ATTACHED?

sometimes i just dont think my family knows how to differentiate the difference between reality and fantasy. like HELLO? you're talking about an old lady with the maid, if you're worried, they shouldnt be alone in the house in the first place right?

wthwthwthwthwthwthwthwthwthwthwthwth.

i feel so wth now. cause WE as LITTLE KIDS have no say in what happens to our grandmother.

&*%$#^@#

suddenly it doesnt feel like chinese new year's coming.

but on the brighter note, WE (guen, ping hui, coreen, kristie, ros, mel, and i ) ARE GOING SHOPPING TMR! (:

应该美好的天气，还下雨，别这样下去，
我难过，但是我说不出口......

sometimes we have to learn to look on the bright side of life.

2007-02-07T21:10:00.000+08:00

i feel down. ):

maybe it's because I CANT WATCH HANA KIMI! ):

god im hana kimi-deprived. ):

why did it have to be you?
why did you have to this to me?

就让我在你的身边....... 偷偷地爱上你......

2007-02-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

i regretted not taking physics! ):

there's speech tmr.

there's music tmr.

there's alot of stuff due on friday.

and i miss watching the rose and hana kimi.

I FEEL SO SCREWED.

cause actually.

I AM SO SCREWED. ):

2007-02-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

曲名：十面埋伏
歌手：S.H.E
专辑：奇幻旅程

随身莫忘打狗棒
锦囊带着绝情丹
凌波微步该闪就闪
yeh oh~~

就算得了倚天剑
身怀降龙十八掌
也别硬闯龙门客栈
yeh oh~~

不确定他是杨过
最好就别扮演小龙女
免得只等来一场伤心
(不要浪费蝴蠂
不要沉溺谷底)

上网就能变情侣
哪里还流行神雕侠侣
千万要小心一片真心
变成了线上游戏

侠女们都请注意
爱情江湖多危机
面对敌人要冷静
yeh oh~~

甜言蜜语多动听
变成暗器就致命
十面埋伏的丛林
不要随便轻易动凡心

不是貌似张无忌
就是来自武当或少林
也许他早就声名狼藉
(好多红颜知己
拥有广大人气)

情书进化成简讯
网内互传省钱又容易
说一百次我好爱你
用不了一成功力

爱要慢慢修炼
太心急
只会让武功全废
经过时间的粹炼
参透悟透爱的箴言
才知道你要的
是谁

侠女们都请注意
爱情江湖多危机
面对敌人要冷静
yeh oh~~

甜言蜜语多动听
变成暗器就致命
十面埋伏的丛林
不要随便轻易动凡心

随身莫忘打狗棒
锦囊带着绝情丹
凌波微步该闪就闪
yeh oh~~

就算得了倚天剑
身怀降龙十八掌
也别硬闯龙门客栈
yeh oh~~

爱要慢慢修炼
太心急
只会让武功全废
经过时间的粹炼
参透悟透爱的箴言
才知道你要的
是谁

侠女们都请注意
爱情江湖多危机
面对敌人要冷静
yeh oh~~

甜言蜜语多动听
变成暗器就致命
十面埋伏的丛林
不要随便轻易动凡心

侠女们都请注意 (请注意)
爱情江湖多危机 (多危机)
面对敌人要冷静
yeh oh~~

甜言蜜语多动听 (多动听)
变成暗器就致命 (就致命)
十面埋伏的丛林
不要随便轻易动凡心

侠女们请注意
爱情江湖危机
面对敌人
yeh oh~~

甜言蜜语多动听
变成暗器就致命
十面埋伏的丛林
不要随便轻易动凡心

TAG REPLIES :
tianhui: haha! i did have fun! except the part where we didnt get to go backstage!!! ):
eening: AHHH. O.O
allyssa: haha ok! (:
slug: EH! WHY I BECOME A DUDU! I THOUGHT KEXIN WAS A DODO?
yihui: stuff? and AIYAH. i found out long ago but i blogged about it today can?! -.-
heeai: YO HEEAI. haha. i tagged you le. (:
liuyi: haha. nvm. tianhui is just being her normal self RIGHT! (:
chingying: relinked! (:

2007-02-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

ok i forgot what i wanted to blog about. ):

anyway. LIUYI AND I found out that ALOT OF TAIWANESE ARTISES come to singapore to:

EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT

cause apparently singapore's food is so appealing to them. o.O

and XIAO ZHU is coming to singapore on 8th feb TO EAT!

and apparently yihong is going to see him. O.O

MY DAD'S LEAVING FOR TAIWAN TOMORROW!!!

im sad! cause the people around me like ______ and _______ and JO are going taiwan (or planning to) at the end of the year! AND I CANT! ):

and MY DAD IS GOING TAIWAN! ):

not like it's for leisure or anything, it's for work. BUT STILLLL. im jealous. ):

im tempted to get TANK's new album! ): how?

and i need to go swimming more often.

i like 唐禹哲's new song: 最爱还是你! (: i think it's really really nice. and it really suits the mood!

ok im being like really random. you know im bored. );

YAY i cant wait for 花样少年少女 to be screened to TEEEEVEEEE!!!! (:

there's jason's tmr.

what should i do?

2007-01-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

i have geog test on friday and i still dont know what exactly is the scope im supposed to learn.

NOT BAD.

i. am. so. freaking. dead.

anyway today was madness.

during lunch we were suddenly talking about CLASS TEE.

and somehow tianhui suggested having a class bra!!!! O.O i expected the whole 312 to react like 207 and ridicule the whole thing, but alyssa and liang hui were all like "eh can leh! (: then maybe we can ask triumph to help us print or something!"

O.O wow?

and SOMEHOW, the whole class started coming up with ideas like class SWIMMING WEAR, class SHORTS, class RAZORBACK, class HALTER, class UNDERGARMENTS etc etc etc.

and eileen wrote the whole list of things of class whatever on the whiteboard! tianhui got so shocked she walked up to ping hui and told her:

"hey i was merely suggesting. you dont have to put it to action you know!!!"

ping hui: "I DUNNO! that was NOT my doing! go and ask eileen koh!" -shakes head-

HAHA. (:

had music after school. but BEFORE THAT, shena and i went for health screening at the alumni room.

AND WALIAO. SO DUMB CAN. we pay 15 BUCKS to go in and take height and weight and for the guy to question us like: "do you have any drug allergies?"

waliao not bad. i can like ask my parents to ask me that at home and I DONT HAVE TO PAY 15 BUCKS?!

rawrrrr omg. so freaking dumb.

anyway. shena and i rushed for music after that and woah the whole class was madness lah. cause goujun was at the com trying to play some video for us which we had to watch and mrs ee was not around. o.O and the boys so irritating!!!! omg. never help out then some of them still criticize us.

LIKE EXCUSE ME? you never help no need to criticize us right?!

but anyway, when we finally got the thing working, our whole class started to do some worksheet with the video and HAHA actually we ended up copying and discussing about things like "what was the piano first known as?" and "who invented the piano?" and stuff like that.

BUT SOME HCI GUYS STILL VERY IRRITATING.....

nvm. nothing happened! =x

shall go off and study geog now! not forgetting maths 4.2. omg headcahe.

should i still continue to persue my dream?

2007-01-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

歌曲:河滨公园
歌手: S.H.E

Selina:河滨公园我们肩并肩
草地绿得太鲜艳说不出口那句再见
想一遍初恋的感觉已走远
我们都看见结局在改变

Hebe:河滨公园我们将手牵
太过幸福的夏天不适合说那句再见
Hebe/Selina:你的脸 Hebe:倒映在河岸的水面
Hebe/Selina:我才发现 Hebe:爱已被搁浅(不见)

Selina:躺着看蓝天你在我右边
不再去争辩谁对谁亏欠

Ella:在鹅卵石步道的岸边你低着头抽烟
只是安静的听我埋怨不再赔着笑脸

S.H.E:我将我自己反锁在房间彻夜未眠
当手中的风筝已经都断了线越飘越远

Hebe:我不再回头去捡那段从前
接受你的抱歉

S.H.E:河滨公园我们肩并肩
Hebe:草地绿得太鲜艳说不出口那句再见
S.H.E:想一遍初恋的感觉已走远
我们都看见结局在改变

S.H.E:河滨公园我们将手牵
Selina:太过幸福的夏天不适合说那句再见
S.H.E:你的脸倒映在河岸的水面
我才发现爱已被搁浅(Ella:不见) (Selina:不见) (Hebe:不见)

i really envy melanie tan! ):

and then i realised it'll never come true.

2007-01-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

im actually kind of on tenderhooks.

there's 听写 tmr. and I CONVENIENTLY FORGOT TO BRING HOME MY 课本。

wow so smart. NOT BAD.

i learn alot of stuff about the music industry from yihui today.

and now i just pray that i can REALLY REALLY FULFILLED MY DREAM YOU KNOW.

cause somehow i dont think i'll make it.

but anyhow, A GIRL CAN STILL DREAM RIGHT? (:

THERE'S BAND TMR! (: we're going to practice hard for SYF!!!! RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT?!

29 more pracs to SYF'07.

2007-01-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

im depressed.

im derprived of one more way out.

one less way to run away from reality.

i hate my life.

2007-01-28T01:48:00.000+08:00

today was the typical day where a girl's left eye kept twitching right from the start of the day when she went little india for flag day and then tuition and then S.H.E concert, where she screamed and sang along with S.H.E. and FAHRENHEIT and SUN YAN ZI.

but that's not the point.

the point is:

IM BACK TO SQUARE ONE FOR REALISING/FULFILLING/WHATEVER MY DREAM!!!! ):

cause in the end, we didnt get to go backstage at all.

but then i realised, it doesnt matter. cause I'VE WATCHED THEM LIVE. (:

and to top it all, i think im gettting a sore throat.

details tmr! BYE.

2007-01-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

BEWARE THE HANA KIMI CRAZE!!!

IT'S SPREADING IN OUR SCHOOL!!!!!!!

everywhere i go, i hear hana kimi OST, i hear people watching hana kimi on youtube, i see hana kimi and FAHRENHEIT posters...

omg IM GOING CRAZY SOON.

i just finished IH essay. i think it sucks.

IH is so contradicting! haha! and to think jasmine and her friends argued over the definition of "SHELTER" when doing a IH project on poverty.

it's all about defining. and explaining. and concepts.

it's still contradicting. :/

here's 专署天使 by TANK if you guys missed it. (: SO NICE RIGHT.

街头霸王 by TANK really discribes my feelings now. aye. just scrape out the part where he says : 终于站上这个舞台..... etc.

sometimes i really doubt myself.

tag replies:
yihui: EHHH! ella and wuzun very nice ok!!! haha GUEN YOU'RE FUN!!!
tricia: linked! (:
guen: nono!!! let's call you FUN!
peisan: linked! (:
hoiman: DONT PANIC. DONT. PANIC.
han sheng: no. they change to instruments like clarinets, flutes or trumpets. IM MARCHING WITH THE HORN!!!! <3

AHHHH WU ZUN!!!!!!! omg HEARTTHROB. <333

2007-01-22T17:16:00.000+08:00

热带雨林-S.H.E.

冷风过境回忆冻结成冰
我的付出全都要不到回音
悔恨就象是绵延不断的丘陵
痛苦全方位的降临

悲伤入侵誓言下落不明
我找不到那些爱过的曾经
你象在寂寞上空盘旋的秃鹰
将我想你啃食干净

月色摇晃树影穿梭在热带雨林
你离去的原因从来不说明
你的谎象陷阱我最后才清醒
幸福只是水中的倒影

月色摇晃树影穿梭在热带雨林
悲伤的雨不停全身血淋淋
那深陷在沼泽我不堪的爱情
是我无能为力的伤心
　　　　　　　

　　　
悲伤入侵誓言下落不明
我找不到那些爱过的曾经
你象在寂寞上空盘旋的秃鹰
将我想你啃食干净

月色摇晃树影穿梭在热带雨林
你离去的原因从来不说明
你的谎象陷阱我最后才清醒
幸福只是水中的倒影

月色摇晃树影穿梭在热带雨林
悲伤的雨不停全身血淋淋
那深陷在沼泽我不堪的爱情
是我无能为力的伤心　　　　　　

月色摇晃树影穿梭在热带雨林
你离去的原因从来不说明
你的谎象陷阱我最后才清醒
幸福只是水中的倒影

月色摇晃树影穿梭在热带雨林
悲伤的雨不停全身血淋淋
那深陷在沼泽我不堪的爱情
是我无能为力的伤心　　　　　　　　　　　

街头霸王-TANK

他住在台北縣的一個土城市
三年級四年級都是這麼皮
沒有人相信他會讓人看得起
只想當個孩子王讓大家尊敬
小學五年級拿到的第一把琴
木頭質料真的讓人覺得爛得可以
不過他不在意他小心翼翼
他心碎著家裡窮沒有繼續學下去

我TRY TRY以後的未來
我期待那舞台
我TRY TRY以後的未來
就算失敗
我也會不斷重來

經過了小學中學他畢了業
學校所教的知識跟他告別
回憶學校不是書本而是玩音樂
家人頭痛煩惱他是畢業還是失業
他假裝聽不見只希望他的夢實現
歌寫了好幾遍就是沒人聽見
他家人反對不准他玩音樂
他堅持賭上自己的未來也不後悔

我TRY TRY以後的未來
我期待那舞台
我TRY TRY以後的未來
就算失敗
我也會不斷重來

我準備好站上我的舞台
帶著我的霸王劍拿下江山未來
我準備好站上我的舞台
帶著我的霸王劍拿下江山未來

我TRY TRY以後的未來
我期待那舞台
我TRY TRY以後的未來
就算失敗
我也會不斷重來

終於站上這個舞台
我明白
不簡單
終於站上這個舞台
就算失敗
我也會不斷重來　

RAWWWRRRR it's only week 4 of school and im like GOING TO DIE?!

rawrrr i hate IH! ): it's so contradicting!!!

but it's ok. THERE'S BAND TMR!!! (:

and there's still the S.H.E. CONCERT to look forward to on saturday!!!

oh my. SATURDAY!!!!! (:

and i realised that 热带雨林 and 街头霸王 quite nice! (: i wanna learn how to sing 热带雨林! (:

yay! and i've finished collecting the materials for decorating my desk! now is when the fun really begins... (:

ok im off to research for IH presentation. CREATING A NATION. oh my tian. i want to faint. ):

and i just want to fall asleep and keep on dreaming my dream forever.

2007-01-20T23:18:00.001+08:00

我做了一个梦，

一个美丽的梦，

但那个美丽的梦方佛一辈子都不能实现。

我要怎么办？

我该怎么办？

我不知所措，

压力去却越来越大。

乘着，乘着，

受不了了。

脑海里浮现了好多画面，

实现却模糊了。

忍不住，

一个人流泪了。

你还在等我吗？

2007-01-20T10:49:00.000+08:00

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/GalaTV&article_id=4675742

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/SHE911&article_id=14662025

go watch! haha. very nice! (:

tag replies:

shihui: haha grab liao. (:

grace: HELLO! (:

ding jie: erm so next time i should say "nutcase" isit? haha.

tianhui: erm NO! you're going to have LCZ! go ask jiaying what that is. :/

liuyi: looking forward to what day? MY DREAM!!!! ):

yihui: haha! why lucky?

jasmine: haha! thanks!

guen: we're primary school friends! haha! and YAH TOKYO JULIET!!! (: the music is not playing cause the web hosting it crashed. and im too lazy to change them =x

han sheng: that's unearthly?!?!?!?

judy: ya i know!!!!! SO SAD!

2007-01-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

edit:

YAY JASMINE AND I DECIDED TO DECORATE OUR DESKS!!!!

and she's putting pictures of JOE CHENG, JIRO and JAY CHOU.

im putting pictures of FAHRENHEIT, ISWAK, TOKYO JULIET AND HANA KIMI.

maybe THE ROSE, JOE CHENG, WU ZUN, YA LUN and JIRO too!

i dunno.

EXCITING!!!!

shhhhh!!!!! (:

/EDIT

omg i really dunno what to feel now.

after all of today's madness with jasmine and hui juan, i still feel depressed now.

hello world. im deprived from entertainment and humour.

i miss youtube. ):

anyway. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN HWEE!!!!

happy belated birthday to HUI JUAN, JACEY and JIALUN also! (:

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance to SHEENA and MELANIE !!!

all the january babes. (:

HOW! THAT DREAM!

HOW!?!?!?!?

will it ever come true?

i dont feel like going for jason's and chinese tuition this weekend. ):

2007-01-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

aye this year got alot of exciting shows going on!

must catch HANA KIMI on channel U on VALENTINE'S DAY at 7 i think. (: must watch!!! got ella, wu zun, jiro, tang yu zhe, ethan ruan, JJ lin and tang zhi ping!!! (:

im planning to catch 终极一家, which is the continuation of 终极一班，which, sadly, i didnt watch. got people like fahrenheit and tang yu zhe acting! (:

the other one that is 熱情仲夏!! starring JOE CHENG!!! and tang yu zhe and calvin chen. and also cai yi zhen, 小鬼 (!) , ethan ruan! ahhh i guess it's a must watch. soo many good actors! (:

and of course! IT STARTED WITH A KISS 2!!!!!! ahhh got JOE CHENG and ARIEL LIN and JIRO!!!! (: omg must watch! (:

anyway, double bass has a NEW JUNIOR. (: yay! but jasmine says the junior 破坏我跟他的二人世界. ): awwwww so sad..... haha! (:

there's marching tmr!!!! (:

2007-01-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

shut up.

im feeling depressed right now. and the music's just making it worse.

我能不能不做你的朋友？

im still thinking about my beautiful dream.

nevermind. just shut up.

2007-01-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

我们怎么了-S.H.E.

落淚以前再看一眼你模糊的臉
這會不會是最後紀念
我凝視你而你凝視窗外的陰天
一句抱歉都僵在嘴邊

我搞不懂我們到底怎么了
誠實的背後是否住著傷口
我想不透我們的愛怎么了
雨下過以後是否能讓什么複活

你的笑臉還在胸前晃動著昨天
为何回憶會讓人暈血
如果我們繼續向前走進雨裏面
會不會有溶解的危險

我搞不懂我們到底怎么了
誠實的背後是否住著傷口
我想不透我們的愛怎么了
雨下過以後是否讓什么複活

明明從前連真摯都很甜美
現在怎會說句話就冷凍一邊

我搞不懂我們到底怎么了
誠實的背後是否住著傷口
我想不透我們的愛怎么了
雨下過以後是否能讓什么複活

2007-01-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

I HAVE A DREAM.

OH PLEASE DONT SHATTER MY BEAUTIFUL DREAM!

THAT DREAM TO BE THAT WHEN I GROW UP!

I WANNA BE THAT! (:

2007-01-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

月桂女神-S.H.E.

傳說漫長浩瀚如史詩般　
記載這段　惶惶不安　

月色金黃　阿波羅的光芒　
卻比不上　達芙妮的勇敢

沒有一種愛可以在自由之上　
達芙妮的傷化身月桂樹倔強

月桂樹飄香　那夜風戀月光　我的愛　很不一樣
素淨的臉上　從不抹濃妝　堅持　自己喜歡
月桂樹飄香　雲纏繞星光　我要　有話就講
無邊的海洋　那遼闊的想像　比誰　都不平凡

森林河畔　阿波羅在追趕　
哭著帶上　達芙妮的桂冠

被束縛的愛已經　沒有了　溫暖　
達芙妮的傷心疼　千年間　流傳

月桂樹飄香　那夜風戀月光　我的愛　很不一樣
素淨的臉上　從不抹濃妝　堅持　自己喜歡
月桂樹飄香　雲纏繞星光　我要　有話就講
無邊的海洋　那遼闊的想像　比誰　都不平凡

愛搖晃　
愛靠岸　
我航向前方　
尋找桂冠

月桂樹飄香　那夜風戀月光　我的愛　很不一樣
素淨的臉上　從不抹濃妝　堅持　自己喜歡
月桂樹飄香　雲纏繞星光　我要　有話就講
無邊的海洋　那遼闊的想像　比誰　都不平凡

月桂樹飄香　那夜風戀月光　我的愛　很不一樣
素淨的臉上　從不抹濃妝　堅持　自己喜歡
月桂樹飄香　雲纏繞星光　我要　有話就講
無邊的海洋　那遼闊的想像　比誰　都不平凡

不做你的朋友-S.H.E.

慢慢失忆　所有和你的事情必须忘记
爱的盆地　深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想被你肯定　在这个时候说我让你感动过

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　
作不成的爱人　变成最好朋友
别牵著我的手　想著别人脸孔　
换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以不作你朋友

慢慢心痛　没有人发现我和从前不同
你的眼中　看得见另一个人给的感动
我也不要你心疼我　在这个时候对我　比从前温柔

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　
作不成的爱人　变成最好朋友
别牵著我的手　想著别人脸孔　
换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以不作你朋友

应该放晴的天气　还下雨　别这样下去　
我难过　但是说不出口

Rap:
一直逃避　
我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记　
我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三　
慢慢经过我们一起绕过的十字街头　
怎麼走都走不到尽头

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　
作不成的爱人　变成最好朋友
别牵著我的手　想著别人脸孔　
换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以别回头　
可不可以就放手　
可不可以不作你的朋友

2007-01-14T01:09:00.000+08:00

omg blogger just ate up my long long post about yesterday! nvm i shall concise everything.

yesterday was fun!

basically because me, melanie, ros, ping hui and guenyik were laughing like maniacs while discussing chinese SIA after school.

and the best thing is we didnt know why we were laughing. NOT BAD.

ros's laughter is super contagious! and melanie's laughing expression is priceless i tell you. PRICELESS.

ANYWAY band was fun!

played jericho! (: and during the shouting part jasmine started laughing and i started laughing and in the end we both were laughing over dunno what. and in end jasmine said she was laughing cause she was shouting and she thought that everyone didnt shout and she felt damn malu so she started laughing. OMG SO LAME. -.-

then we had marching with horns! omg jiaying very blur can! she commanded us to march forward or right when we were in senang diri position. -.- NOT BAD. then jasmine is the ultimate. during hentak, people who normally tend to move forward. JASMINE TAN MOVES BACKWARDS. omg faint. and jiaying kept laughing at her! cause when jasmine got lost during hentak, she start marching weirdly! like she shouts KIRI but her right foot is down. -.- then nutcase cannot raise her leg 90 degrees! o.o then we heard NPCC marching downstairs and they shout very low! so jiaying decieded to follow them and started shouting commands very low also! but she finally suceeded in BREAKING HER VOICE. -.- omg. then jasmine also started shouting very low and we all ended up laughing like siao.

"eh we shout very low first then later we try shouting very high! "-jasmine tan

wow NOT BAD.

then nutcase very loser! cause jiaying commanded us to turn right but she turned left! then she was standing in the middle somemore! and jiaying kept laughing at her! haha! omg so funny.

then after marching jiaying jasmine and i left early to go and help to sell the hearts and hands notebooks. then jasmine tan kept saying "GOOD MORNING SIR/MADAM" when it was already evening. omg NOT BAD ARH. then jasmine and i went home together! (:

oh oh! and jiaying kept saying i got alot of "er ren shi jie" with alot of people like jasmine, nutcase and recently, CHERYL. NO LORH WHEREGOT HUH. DONT ANYHOW SAY. it's just because im VERY SOCIABLE or YOU JEALOUS ISIT! haha!

aye this year is so un-breathable.

with additional music, and IH, which is a total headache, i really dont know how im going to survive. plus i have to KEEP SWIMMING cause the nurse says it's good for my backbone. then i have a new chinese tuition! omg more homework. ):

plus all the family matters at home, i really dont know what to do.

i just know i have to keep breathing.

tomorrow will be a better day!!!

oh crap. THERE'S JASON'S!

2007-01-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

aye. talk about sec 3 life.

yes there's lots of things to look forward to, like OBS, SYF, Appassionata XI and stuffs.

but look at the other side of stuffs.

look at our workload. it's the 2nd week of school and i have to do:
-maths ws 2.1
-bio ws
-read music notes
-read IH notes
-IH presentation
-IH essay
-chem SIA
-bio SIA
-chi SIA
-CME SIA

so many SIAs! omg. i want to die liao lah. and IH SEEMS SCARY!!! look at it! it's actually GP containing:
-anthropology
-economics
-geography
-history
-political science
-sociology

and to tell you the truth, im only interested in sociology and geography.

and david han told us that universiy students take like 4 years to learn one if the humans above and we are supposed to learn all 6 of them in 2 years.

woah we damn smart arh. want to say we smart also no need to like that right!

rawrrr IH is every sec 3's horror. i guess.

anyway we had MARCHING today! with INSTRUS! (: and jasmine and i chose to march with the HORN!!!!

oh man i tell you MARCHING IS SUPER FUN. except i forgot all the commands. rawwrrr. and HAHA when they shout the command for playing position horns have to whip out the horn like dunno what? aiyah we have to like swing the horn out and swing it back. and i dunno why our band has soooo many condemned horns. o.o AND THEY ALL SMELL OF MOSS/ALGAE/RUST? haha. anyway whipping out the horn is COOL!!!! ahhh so fun! (: ahaha! but i can only whip out the horn super fast. I CANT SEEM TO SWING THE HORN BACK! ): and jiaying jasmine and cheryl can all swing the horn back with only one hand! i need two hands!!! ): rawrrr need to practice!

rawr shall go and read my IH notes now. BYE.

2007-01-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

omg SIEWYING FOCUS you know FOCUS.

it's school time.

anyway band yesterday was fun yet IRRITATING.

cause jasmine tan and i were getting high about ZHENG YUAN CHANG!!!! then we started taking photos and i refused to show her the photos i took and she got angry and locked me out of the classroom!!! ): BULLY ME!!! then i ran to prettymela! who conveniently refused to help me. ): then when i finially managed to get back into the class, JASMINE THREW MY BOOK OUT OF THE CLASS! ): then some nice sec 1 happened to pass by and helped me get the book. then JASMINE THREW MY SCORES OF THE CLASS!!! ): then shenyi went out to help me get! (:

aiyah then we just kept laughing and quarelling lah. HAHA. then had bass lessons and we went home together! (:

today had music. aye HCI students performed. then goujun and i kept talking and whispering and we did our maths (actually she did maths and gave up and changed to chem). haha was super high during music dunno why. then hc people very irritating. kept sniggering when people play wrongly. SO MEAN! ):

anyway i found out from yihui that HANA KIMI IS SCREENING ON TV AFTER VALENTINE'S DAY! (: YAY!!!! happy happy!

my mum still hasnt approved me of that thing URGH!!!! angry.

tmr got BAND! got marching with instrus! exciting.

ok this is like super random. BYE! :/

2007-01-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

being confined to such a small space just isnt enough.

you had to take away the 2 other things which actually brought joy into my daily life.

im nothing to you. im nothing but a trophy for you to brag about.

but now the trophy's rusty. what do you do?

you throw it away.

i cant believe im actually going to say goodbye to jason and saying hello to a private tutor. jason's like the best tutor i've ever had?

but no. you're oh so confident that the new guy's better.

even jason cared. you didnt.

i cant even feel free to tell you what i really want to.

sometimes i feel like you're pushing the limits too much.

what can i do? life's tough. but you know you gotta keep breathing.

got music "assesment" tomorrow and i still cant play my piece properly. god im so dead.

on the brighter note, THERE'S BAND! (:

2007-01-08T00:32:00.000+08:00

i'm about to see such a good opportunity float by my very own eyes.

if only i could just reach out to grab it.

but im restrained.

LIUYI!!! HOW. ):

if i could just fall to pieces.

hoho the irony.

tag replies:

miki: WHO ARE YOU ARH.
jasmine: eh WHO OTHER THAN JASMINE TAN ARH? (: YA ZHENG YUAN CHANG! (:
sok: oh cause i got all the songs from filelodge.com and that stupid net is down for repair at the moment. ):
yufei: YA LORH. I SO AGREE. (:

shorts posts for now. it's really tiring living life nowadays.

bye!

2007-01-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

ok edit:

I DONT WANT THEM TO GO! ):

anyway. BAND IS THE FIRST TO PUT UP THEIR "PROMOTIONAL" BANNER! (:

can't see it clearly?

YEAH WE RULE! (: let the passion live on! (:

HAHA! bye! (:

btw, i found out from jiaying's blog thjat 80% of band members are deaf.

which i found out is quite true.

2007-01-02T21:12:00.001+08:00

went SWIMMING! (: early this morning with gary and marcus. was being spas and lame and all that. sat the slide like dunno how many times and i got squashed by gary like dunno how many times. why? cause he's BIG and you know the larger mass you have, the larger the inertia or something so you move faster! and he was sitting behind me and i was moving damn slowly and i got hit by him. ):

then after that went limbang to lunch and CUT HAIR. ): and that hairdresser asked me to rebond my hair and NOW I REALLY LOOK LIKE A GHOST. -.-

after that went to see grandma at the nursing home and saw gary and marcus again. hurhur. started playing dumb stuff again.

ANYWAY, tag replies! (:

eening: merry christmas! now should be happy new year le. =x

lynn: aye merry christmas! haha!

qianwen: merry christmas! (:

wenqi: you went to measure arh! O.O

han sheng: aye! i asked you to tag not spam! haha. but nvm. (:

vera: aye i change to : I DONT WANT THE SEC 4 BATCH 07 TO GO!!! ): haha. happy?

tianhui: same to you! (:

jiaying: haha you want the pictures can ask me i can send to you. DIRECTLY. (:

miki: who are you?

nut: haha! ok lah. I DONT WANT THE SEC 4 BATCH TO GO!!! ): and of course my blog
so pretty lah! cause it's MINE right! haha. no lah i got good taste. (:

han sheng: haha! i not like you always sleep in class! anyway cannot sleep le. ):

shihui: thanks! (:

bye! THERE'S SCHOOL TMR. oh the feeling of dread. ):

2007-01-01T18:11:00.000+08:00

天灰-S.H.E.

如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

2006-12-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

1 more hour to 2007.

yay i've changed my blogskin! (: to TOKYO JULIET! (: YAY! now can see wu zun on my blog HAHA. (:

anyway life's been pretty much on band for the last few days. on wednesday the sec2 batch of band met up at janabel's house to practice for farewell. danced to til the dawn by drew sidoria from step up. (: then thursday we had farewell which was pretty much rocked by the sec 3 batch's video (which is on youtube btw). waliao super lame but ya! very funny! sabrina so diao! haha. then after farewell jasmine tianhui and i went for class party! yay got to see almost everybody again and played games and eat food. got sabooed like twice? ok nvm.

friday had band prac. 40 MORE PRACTICES TO SYF! must jiayou! (: anyway our band schedule for next year is pretty hectic. :/

January : Sec one orientation thing. (aiyah, but this one not counted cause im not performing. im leading the tours. -.-). Still got the filming of the marching video in mid jan. omg PANIC.

February : Practice at SYF place. ON VALENTINES DAY CAN. omg. 8 at night somemore. ):

March : band exchange thing. We're hosting. o.O

April : SYF! ahh! must get GOLD WITH HONOURS. and waliao HC is playing jericho also can! ):

MAY : er. concert prepartion.

June : still concert preparation.

July: Concert. APPASSIONATA XI! (:

August : Nanyang anniversary thing.

and then passing down. DIE LAH I DONT WANT JASMINE TO GO. ):

urgh im panicking for the preparation of sec 1 oreintation 2007 cause im supposed to prepare the peer support sessions stuff but i cant seem to find the files on the net and i cant possibly remember the whole schedule. HOW. omg. im dying.

and jason's homework is BOTHERING ME. ok i must admit i've been slacking everyday after band and not touching his homework but still, IT'S THE NEW YEAR. everything is changing EXCEPT for the amount of homework jason is giving me. it's still as thick as ever. rawrrr.

ok i shall go off and erm laze around waiting for count down? ya.

BYE! (:

2006-12-26T13:13:00.000+08:00

BAND CAMP!

day 1

woke up damn early cause my dad was overseas and i had to take bus with big camping bags. then jasmine smsed me about being angsty cause she didnt want to leave home for camp CAUSE she wanted to stay home to watch ISWAK. though she watched finish the whole thing already. hurhur. aye, also partly because the whole percussion sec 3 is not coming for camp also.

reached school and i saw mellissa. then sat down at the benches in front of the audi to wait for jasmine but in the end she smsed to ask me to go up first. -.- then went up and when i saw nutcase, the first thing she said was "SIEWYING! WHAT ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO SAY TO ME?"

i took off my earphones and went "HUH??!?!"

haha. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NUTCASE. (:

then saw kexin and she was like struggling with her bags so i went down to help her again and i saw jasmine come up. -.- then kexin kept going "omg siewying! why you suddenly so nice?!" -.- yeo kexin! i was always nice! you just didnt know. HURHUR. (:

then went into bandroom to put down stuff and then assembled to get into our groups. i was in group 3! together with jasmine TAN and jasmine POON and connie and some other quiet sec 1s. :/

so we set off for the amazing race. HMM. wah the clues very hard can! our first clues was a crossword puzzle and our station was germain's station, where we had to use everything and anything on our body to form the longest line. O.O

then after that we got the 2nd clue which was crap lah! the answer was TOILET. got so many toilets in school! WHICH ONE?! haha. then jasmine TAN and i were the super enthu and noisy people in our group lah. and we kept leading the whole group. then the other people just blindly follow us. :/ and jasmine and i kept screaming ZHENG YUAN CHANG!!!!! cause that's like our aftermath of ISWAK. (: haha. then we kept talking about being 188 cm tall and how tall is that height compared to us. haha. since you know, joe cheng is like 188 cm tall. (:

qoutes jasmine "ehh! i want to adjust my bass to 188 cm tall! so that i can see how tall zheng yuan chang actually is. BUT HOW TALL IS 188 CM??!"

ok lame. then the toilet turned out to be the locker toilet. CYNTHIA'S STATION. we had to do sudoku! and our group people all dunno how to do sudoko! except for er someone in our group. i cant remember. :/ then after that we got a clue that said "where my beloved and i does frenching." so we were like "BANDROOM!" then cynthia was like "no it's not bandroom!"

so we went all over the school looking for some ulu ulu place where we would choose to do frenching. (sounds wrong. :/ ) and in the end, IT'S IN THE SECTIONALS ROOM. but who cares! it's still near the bandroom! and it's mellissa's station! so dumb! we had to go and find JUDY for her signature and judy was supposed to be like wandering around the school, BUT WE FOUND HER AT GERMAIN'S STATION. :/

then after that it was sabrina's station. cant remember what the clue was. we had to use rubber bands to form a skipping rope then 3 of us had to skip together. YAY I THINK OUR GROUP QUITE PRO IN THIS. cause we could skip quite continually, unlike some other groups that we saw haha!

then it was jiaying's station in the bandroom. ahhh quite dumb. we were supposed to use straws to blow balloons and since there were not enough balloons, we had to reuse the same ones over and over again. but i dont see the point cause saliva corrodes balloons and the more your reuse it, the higher the chances of it getting burst you know. and i was not contributing at all cause of my phobia of balloons. =x

ok then we got our clue from jiaying, which was this arrow that formed an upside-down U. and it's supposed to be a watercooler. -.- WHICH WATERCOOLER?! but ok we were spared from that cause it was LUNCH TIME! (: woah super hungry. then jasmine, jiaying, nutcase, mellissa, germain and i went to bukit timah marketplace for lunch! (: since it was the first time i went there, i ate whatever jasmine ate. which was nasi lemak. hurhur. then we ordered sugar cane juice!!! (: haha jiaying told me the last time they went there to ate, they all bought sugar cane drink from different stalls. all of them were green in colour except for nutcase's drink! which was BROWN. :/ weird. dunno which stall she buy from. haha.

oh oh! nutcase very dumb! cause germain was telling us dumb jokes when we were on the way there and nutcase was being super blur about it. see arh.

germain: "i ask you, why on a sunny day, birds fly in circles?"

nutcase: "oh really arh! i didnt know!"

-.-"

then went back and we had time to discuss about farewell stuff. :/ did like nothing, cause school blocked youtube and we didnt know where to get songs and stuffs. then after that we had MARCHING! (: was quite blur at first cause i forgot all the commands and stuff. and jasmine and nutcase went off to SLACK by helping shi min to carry dinner upstairs to the bandroom from the carpark. then jiaying was commanding us (bass + trombone section) since horns only got jiaying and yufei (who slacked off helping jasmine!!). and it was damn fun and funny, cause jiaying didnt know how to say some of the commands. haha.

then after marching jasmine, nutcase, sabrina, cheryl, jacey, yixin and i were all choinging for the locker toilets haha. then jasmine was like "I DONT CARE. THE SEC 3S USE THE LOCKERS TOILETS." when yi xin and i already left the bandroom and were heading for the toilets le. then yixin and i were the first to shower in the toilet lah haha. we were taking our own sweet time until jasmine came in and rawrred at us. haha! then after showering, nutcase and i waited for jasmine outside at the benches near the rockwall. then the 2 of us went into our 二人世界 again. and when jasmine came out, she was like "OOI! why the both of you so close! nutcase! go further away from siewying! i will get jealous one you know!"

ERRRRRR.

then after that jasmine, nutcase and i ate dinner together. (: food was NASI LEMAK again. but it was quite nice. then after that, jasmine went for some talk i think, cant remember. then nutcase and i were left alone in our 二人世界 again! we got bored and nutcase suggested taking photos with my phone.

Yufei and i ! (:

er. again. haha! nutcase so cute right! ok i look like some ghost.

err. ok. i cant remember what happened but something funny happened and we started laughing and this happened. HMM.

then shimin and cynthia came in to start our nighttrail! (:

er. shimin and cynthia at the piano. with jiaying's back facing us. and yunxin, yixin, guan teng and co. at the background.

CHAI JIAYING a.k.a. CINDERS. a.k.a. HOT GUY! haha. managed to catch this before she turned away.

ok for nightwalk, we were supposed to do stuffs at different places BLINDFOLDED. haha. so we got back into our groups and our first station was at germain's place, where we had to count balloons blindfolded. O.O ahhh balloons! we kept bursting them and i kept screaming. ok nvm.

then next was shimin's station. where we had arrange ourselves in order of the thing shimin tells us. like she says to arrange ourselves according to height, age, birthday whatever. and we were to be blindfolded. haha. then still remember cheryl's (basses) conversation with jasmine blindfolded.

cheryl: -pats jasmine on her shoulder/ head.- ehh! who are you?!?!?

jasmine: I DONT KNOW!!!

-pause-

jasmine: eh wait! sorry sorry! im jasmine, im jasmine.

omg i almost fainted.

then the next station was cynthia's station. at first we couldnt find her cause shimin told us she was at the 3rd level science block. and we were thinking SCIENCE BLOCK. omg. we're so dead.

so we went up, and we headed for the science block, but it was so dark we couldnt see a thing. and xinyi very brave! she just walked straight into the darkness. and jasmine and i were holding onto each other for dear life. then jasmine was like "ok ok. everybody! line up behind siewying and i. we go first." then when cheryl came out from behind us, she screamed. and we all started screaming also. -.- WALIAO. jasmine arh!!

it turns out that cynthia was at the maths department. and our task was to play "where's the peanut" game. was quite dumb cause we couldnt hear each other from the other end of the corridoor and we kept saying crap like "why's the sky blue?" "no! the sky's black! " or "why is grass green?" "cause it's not blue." and it was so shi bai that we resorted to sining "why we so shi bai!" -.- super lame.

then we went to mellissa's station. which was to cross some sort of obstruction thing thing. and jasmine kept being saboed by mellissa. WHICH WAS BAD. cause im paired up with jasmine.

then we went to jiaying's station in the bandroom. which was to form some sort of word with our bodies when we were being blindfolded. o.O i was being chosen to like instruct my group but i was so shi bai and cheryl took over. aye.

then after that, we had to play this game involving the whole band, where we were scattered across the quad, and we were blindfolded, and we had to call animal noises to get back into our groups. and my group was a cat lah. then when the game started, the comm started bursting balloons!!! and our group was miao-ing damn loudly but we were the last to get back into our groups. aye. quite loser. and yufei's group was a cow and since they were group 2, they went "tooooooooooooooo." omg. faint.

then we watched "dude, where's my car?" omg. it's a brainless movie i tell you. something about conquering the universe. damn lame. i didnt know that smellymelli (mellissa. that's the new nickname nutcase invented for her. o.O) watched such dumb blond movies! haha. AND THENNNN.... omg. jasmine nutcase and i kept laughing at that part lah! and jasmine could imitate it really well! haha! everytime she said that we kept laughing like siao.

after that we went to brush teeth and sleep. haha. omg nutcase very cute lah! she brought her pyjamas to wear to sleep!

ok. not very clear, but ya. you get the picture. (:

and when it was time to sleep, JASMINE TAN was damn noisy! she kept talking and talking and poor sabrina and nutcase couldnt sleep lah! even when sabrina shifted ffurther away from me, cause i was sleeping beside jasmine and nutscase was on the other side of jasmine. jiaying was lying perpendicular to sabrina, nutcase, jasmine and i, and germain and mellissa were lying on the other side of jiaying. even germain from so far off could hear jasmine lah! omg. and jasmine kept talking about random stuff. and she kept singing! waliao eh. super noisy can! and she said goodnight 4 times before she finally went to sleep can! and by that time it was already 0030 and we were supposed to sleep ay 11.45! it's like :

qoutes from yufei's blog:

Jasmine: good night!

us: good night!

Jasmine: EH SIEWYING YOU KNOW AH I THINK ZHENG YUAN CHANG IS VERY SHUAI LOR! HE'S LIKE 188CM TALL LEH. HOW HE GET HIS SLEEPING BAG ONE ARH?

we said good night for like 4 times and jasmine talked and talked after each good night we said while smellymelli complained that her bolster is biting her.

Smellymelli: I feel something sharp. I think my bolster is biting me!

and EVERYTIME when I was about to doze off (I was like feeling super drowsy + I keep slurring ideas and words together) jasmine will say:" EH NUTCASE YOU SLEEPING AH?!!!?!?!?" then my sleeping spirit went off and I ROWRRRREEEDDD AT HER. hahahahah

HAHAHAHHA then at the 4th good night aka the last good night..

Jasmine: good night everyone I want to sleep now shhhhhhh!bu yao chao.

us: FINALLY.

haha actually she was listening to my handphone before she could sleep. aye. tsk man.

day 2

woke up at 6 something and we went out surprised to find that it was quite bright and it's raining! so marching was cancelled and we had band prac. but before that, we had breakfast! had hi-5 bread for breakfast, with milo. and nutcase was like "ohh hi-5 bread very healthy! good good! "

jasmine: "ehh! you know, the factory put the bread on the floor with all the mice running about one leh. you never read the news meh?"

haha. then jiaying nutcase jasmine and i went to the benches at the classroom block to eat in our "四人世界"and jasmine and jiaying kept saying that nutcase and i were les-ing with each other. wth! no lorh! we're straight lorh! qoutes yufei: I think jasmine is secrety jealous of us lor HAHAHAH she keep saying we are in our er ren shi jie I think she secretly wants to join in too HAHAHA

then nutcase very greedy! she took like 2 slices of bread and in the end she couldnt eat finish. AYE. tsk man.

then we had band prac. then i became quite moody. sorry jasmine! cause i was damn tired and my legs were aching from all the marching the day before and i couldnt believe that after that i had skin center appointment and i have to travell all the way there like WTH! rawrr. but it's ok. we played jericho!!!! yay i love our syf piece! it's very nice! the only dumb thing is that we changed our piece from pirate's dreams to jericho cause HC was playing pirate's dreams and now after we've changed it, HC 's changing their piece to jericho too. urgh irritating.

but anyway, our SYF set piece is so cute!!! NIGHT SAFARI! we get to do stuffs we dont normally do in a piece! haaha so fun! (:

then after that we went to thai noodle house to eat! and cheryl, jacey, jasmine and i went to coro's NTUC to shop for midnight snacks! (:

then after that we kept talking about ISWAK until i went off for skin center appointment. aye damn tiring. but it's ok. cause my condition's getting better! and my sister's conditioning is getting worse. HEHHEH. then i went back to school. missed their NAP TIME! and marching. AYE. ): then in our 2-hour bathing time, i quickly went to bathe and came out to play some exciting game with jiaying, guan teng, rachel, sabrina, melanie, jasmine, nutcase, jacey, clara, and cheryl. that's all i think. cant remember. quite fun and funny cause we kept calling wrong names and melanie kept pointing and pointing but not saying anything. haha! (:

anyway, after that we had CAMPFIRE!!! (: haha. more of a CANDLE-FIRE! we went down to the quadrangle and arranged all the candles in the words "I <3>

see the "C" ?

nine lighted candles.

Now there's one left.

the passion lives on.... NYCB! (:

yay. then after that we had dinner! fried rice! we sat in a circle outside the G.O. and played pass the parcel. then lower brasses had to do a dare. which was to run around the feild cheering band cheer. qoutes jasmine: "EHH SIEWYING! we not brasses leh! i play the double bass, which is a STRING instrument!" HAHA. but in the end we still WALKED PAST the field cheering the band cheer. note WALKED PAST. haha.

then horns had a dare, which was to go up to the 2nd level outside the podium and shout "I'M SO HOT THAT THE SCHOOL IS ON FIRE!" haha! then nutcase and jiaying and ziyan got saboed by mellissa jasmine and i cause we said we couldnt hear and they had to do it twice.

then nut named melanie prettymela! actually the pretty is melanie force us to put one lorh. haha! and melanie damn funny! we kept singing stupid songs and actions that melanie initiated. haha! omg melanie super lame. and i kept laughing beside her cause of all the stupid stuff she did.

then tabitha and emily played their guitars for us while we sang christmas carols! and nut and melanie were laming about with jasmine and mellissa on the other side. aye. then we kept saying "AND THENNNNN." and laughing stupidly to oursleves. then after that, we went to the quadrangle to clean up the max on the floor. and by the time i got back to the bandroom, i saw this.

ok it's abit too dark to see. basically it's jasmine, nutcase, jiaying, sabrina, and melanie sitting there and eating the food that they got from the prize-presentation during campfire. hohum. we tried playing moulin rouge but it got stuck after 15mins so we played the phantom of the opera. haha nut kept asking jiaying about the movie like she was the director cause jiaying said she watched it 3 times le. it went like :

yufei: why the phantom like christine?

cinders:... AIYAH HOW I KNOW!

yufei: I thought you watched it 3 times already?

cinders: ...

yufei: huh why like that?

cinders: *tries to explain*

yufei: eh? I don't understand.

jasmine: nutcase bu yao chao.

me: :/

cinders is jiaying btw. and jasmine nut and i all agree that christine very pretty! (: and we kept trying to steal melanie's marshmallows but melanie went :"WHAT MUST YOU CALL ME?" what mela?"

ya lah. PRETTYMELA. haha.

soo pretty hor! haha!

haha i realised that the last band camp, i spent it with jasmine and nutcase. this camp was no different. haha.

that night jasmine didnt continue her cycle of talking! probably because she was listening to "只对你有感觉" and drifted off to sleep. haha!

day 3

woke up earlier than the rest of the band cause i had psgl duty in the morning. all the ushering and stuff. did duty with janice and she was like "DORRY (nutcase) looks so different!!"after i showed her the pictures i took. o.O duty ended at 10 and i went back for band prac. (: then after that we broke camp.

yay this camp was very fun! partly because it was lame that's why. hurhur.

I LOVE NYCB! (:

2006-12-26T01:24:00.000+08:00

i am currently feeling super angsty.

not just because christmas didnt felt like christmas at all, it's also partly because my uncles dont do their part as being a SON.

i mean, talk about fillial piety. your disabled mum is being sent to the nursing home and she might be there like forever but you dont give a damn. you dont even bother to visit her on a day like christmas.

and better still, you're out there fighting with your bigger sister over the house and trying to sell it off for the cash.

are you that in need for cash? i think your dear mother needs you more. but anyhow, you dont care. cause you've got 3 other brothers and 2 younger sisters to look after her right?

hoho. afterall. this is a "girl's job".

you dont care how your nieces and nephews would feel cause of course, money is more important.

and you didnt even know when your other sister far far away in scotland called home to yell at your dear mother, who is STILL THINKING THAT SHE IS IN A HOSPITAL.

and when she realised that she was in no hospital but a "old folk's home", she went berserk and started yelling to the nurses and maids about wanting to go home all over again.

what kind of family do i have may i ask you? i dont even know anymore. i can see why we're not celebrating christmas this year. i spent the whole of last night and this morning lying through my teeth about MERRY christmas.

what's there to be merry about this season?

and to top it all, i think im banned from the com, which is a nightmare cause MY COMMONWEALTH ESSAYSSSSSS ARE STILL UNDONE.

ya. commonwealth essaySSSSSSSSS cause i have so many drafts. like wth.

and i cant get into HIM international music's official website I DONT KNOW WHY IT'S BLOCKED FROM MY COM NOW.

and youtube is still blocked. HOW AM I GOING TO GET IDEAS FOR DANCE MOVES FOR FAREWELL?!

bloody hell. I MISS KUI from the rose. ): HOW?

and there's still band camp to blog about. :/

it's ok. life sucks and i know it.

bye.

2006-12-23T00:29:00.000+08:00

逆风
Tokyo Juliet OST
演唱: Garden Sister

用独特的关键字眼
我搜寻著世界
只想找到一个空间
布置我的宣言

梦想已存放许多
不在乎被谁偷走
我只有一个感受
我真的真的我真的受伤过

黑夜逆风细雨
梦想热情和我
痛苦却又甜蜜
Why should I care at all? At all...

我不管别人的看法
却又想被人看见
你总是说出了盲点
有时候真是讨厌

信心已存放了许多
你不在却不好过
我只有一个感受
你真的真的你真的够爱我

黑夜逆风细雨
梦想热情和我
痛苦却又甜蜜
Why should I care,
Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

每个选择路口我就挑难的路走
每次你放弃我我突然回头你却还跟著我

黑夜逆风细雨
梦想热情和我
痛苦却又甜蜜
Why should I care,
Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

back from band camp! (: it was fun fun and more fun! but im dead tired. shall blog about it tmr. (: BYE!

The passion lives on... (:

night!

2006-12-19T21:04:00.000+08:00

Song Title: 放不下
Artist: 龔詩嘉/kaira gong
Tokyo Juliet OST

你好嗎
你的夜是不是跟我的一樣漫長
是不是
還把我給你的愛好好戴在手上
要堅強
我常常對著鏡子裡的人大聲講
雖然說
孤獨的想一個人好像一種懲罰

msn上太多的路人甲
偶爾你也該上來說說話

想著你的溫柔
想著你的模樣
我放不下
都說過了再見
我們各自飛翔
各自長大
抱緊愛會掙扎
放開愛會心慌
神也很忙
到底要實現哪個願望
離開你那麼傻
可以後侮嗎

風很大
怕你又穿得太少會讓自己著涼
我很棒
一個人換了燈泡房間變得很亮
每一天
發生的事情我都好想要跟你講
愛很怪
什麼都介意最後又什麼都原諒

想著你的溫柔
想著你的模樣
我放不下
都說過了再見
我們各自飛翔
各自長大
抱緊愛會掙扎
放開愛會心慌
神也很忙
到底要實現哪個願望
離開你那麼傻
可以後侮嗎

ooh心裡最深的牽挂
越想遺忘越不能忘

想著你的溫柔
想著你的模樣
我放不下
都說過了再見
我們各自飛翔
各自長大

想著你的溫柔
想著你的模樣
我放不下
都說過了再見
我們各自飛翔
各自長大
抱緊愛會掙扎
放開愛會心慌
神也很忙
到底要實現哪個願望
離開你那麼傻
可以後侮嗎

tmr's band camp le. aye havent finish packing yet. =x

shall go off now. BYE. (:

2006-12-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

hohum. hello.

yes yes i know. why is the audio player there over on the right flooded with chinese songs?

aye. i didnt manage to find english songs which were in mp3 format, and those which i found either snippets of the songs or utter rubbish. SO. anyone who knows where to get english songs mp3 please tell me. then i'll be able to load more songs into the audio player. (: you guys can also request what song you want me to put in, as long as you drop a tag with the url of the mp3 format, i'll upload the song. (:

btw, i've managed to get 三国恋 by TANK. so liuyi! that's for you! (;

band camp's on wednesday, and i havent started packing. :/ DIE.

have to go now. have fun meddling with the audio player!

BYE! (:

2006-12-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

got this from liuyi:

WuZun's cleanliness habit makes his roommate Calvin go crazy. Calvin says: "What's worse is that if i havent showered, i cannot sit or touch his bed. Then when i enter the room with my shoes still on, he will nag me non-stop." To avoid the nagging WuZun, Calvin has learned to obediently take off his shoes when entering.

Speaking of WuZun, every day when he finishes showering, he will wear his cap, making Calvin think that he is going out to buy something. But what surprised Calvin was that the reason for WuZun to wear his cap is because he hasnt washed his face yet. WuZun explains: "I dont like using the hotel's shower cap and hair accessories, so i wear my own cap."

WuZun reveals that when sleeping, Calvin doesnt wear underwear. Because Calvin likes to wear loose-fitting short shorts in the hotel without underwear, WuZun has seen it all.

When talking about underwear, both Calvin and WuZun teamed up to expose Jiro's weird habit of blow drying his underwear. Because Jiro will not wear those disposable underwear, he insists on wearing his own. Because time is tight, and he insists on it being clean and fast, he will leave the blow dryer on in the bathroom to dry up his wet underwear, making the entire place noisy.

Both Jiro and Calvin care a lot about their appearence. Everyday when Calvin wakes up, to aviod having swollen eyes, he would do a eye mask every morning. Plus Calvin loves to watch televison so watches it in the morning, this makes the members question him: "How do you watch TV and do a eye mask at the same time?" As for Jiro, every night he will do a face mask and walk around in his room, in which the temperature is 30 degrees. The other 2 members cannot stand it and say: "It's so hot that the only way you can stay in his room is if you take off your clothes!" When Jiro heard this, he quickly replies: "No wonder gym instructor WuZun always walks around topless!"

HARHAR SO FUNNY!!! damn retarded. madness.

i realised alot of people like DEBBIE and LIUYI like fahrenheit alot, and most of them like Jiro and Aaron more.

but IT'S OKAY. I LIKE WU ZUN. (:

HAHA. SO CUTE! (:

though he's like the oldest, but still! <3>

and not to forget-

JOE CHENG! ZHENG YUAN CHANG! <33

ahhhah! i wanna tall when i grow up. like one seven something you know. (:

ok this is like totally random. i shall be off now. BYE!

2006-12-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

got this off sabrina's blog.

1. Are you a Chinese or English freako?
eh. freako? i prefer english to chinese but im definitely not an "english freako".

2. If time is going to stop, what would you possibly do in that time?
actually this questions doesnt really make any sense does it. if time stops, everything stops. what can you actually do? but okay i get the picture. i'd probably er watch all the dramas that i've wanted to watch, catcch a movie or just listen to music and reminisce the past.

3. Prefer a playpool or playground?
what's playpool? or did you mean PLAY POOL? eh. playground bah. i love the slides. (:

4. Do you usually gossip others; or being gossiped?
how do you know if you're being gossiped? but anyhow, i dont know. :/

5. Do you like simple or complicated stuff?
I love music. it's complicated stuff right?

6. Do you tackle numbers better; or alphabets?
Alphaberts. im not really a fan of numbers.

7. What makes you pissed off?
errr. stuffs?

8. How’s your childhood?
Aye. it's not all pure bliss, but it's definitely better than now. it's really tiring living life nowadays.

9. Do you have inspiration without perspiration?
People shouldnt ask questions with words just because they rhyme.

10. Do you think 24 hours is too long, too short, or just okay?
too short! ahhh die arh commonwealth essay!

11. Would you judge people by their appearances?
I try not to but it still has some impact on what i think of that person.

12. What is attractive in your eyes?
er. anything that is attractive? ehh the com! hehheh. hana kimi!

13. Do you like day or night? Explain why
Day. cause it signifies a brand new day. or a brand new start. but aye i feel tired in the day. how ironic.

14. Do you treasure stuff that you own; or have insatiable desires?
qoutes sabrina: Some stuff are worth treasuring, but others just take up space.

15. If your computer hanged up, with a long long document not being saved, how would you react?
aye. dont panic. DONT. PANIC.

16. Do you believe in miracles? Or was it long predestined?
miracles to happen. but were they predestined?

17. Do you often tend to forget the past; or try hard to do so?
the past was a beautiful picture. the present and the future is just oh-so vague.

18. In your mind, why colours are out there?
for you to be awed by nature, for you to be awed by life. yet, for you to note the differences.

19. Have you pitied those who are really pitiful; or shed tears for them, etc?
uhuh.

20. Describe yourself as in attitude.
eh?

21. Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet?
ya. but it's temperamental.

22. Give 3 advantages when you get to live.
1. the food!
2. the music!
3. the colours!

23. What is your ambition in life?
wrong question to ask me now. i was thinking about marine biology. now...

24. Do you believe in horoscope?
not really. it doesnt apply to me.

25. Describe music in your life
a definite necessity. i'll die without it.

26. Which country would you like to go if you could afford it?
Everywhere, and anywhere.

27. What do you think blogging is about?
a place to express thoughts.

28. What kind of style are you trying to get hold of?
what style?

29. When you fail a test, how would you react?
Try harder the next time.

30. Pass this to 8 friends, for them to get it done.
Anyone who wants to do this, go ahead! haha.

怎么办 MTV by S.H.E.

enjoy! (:

2006-12-15T13:12:00.000+08:00

Married male, age 45

Dear Claudia,

You win, I can't take it any longer, I know you have been waiting for this to happen. I hope it makes you very happy, this is not an easy thing to do, but I've got to the point where there is nothing to live for, a little bit of kindness from you would of made everything so different, but all that ever interested you was the dollar.

It is pretty hard for me to do anything when you are so greedy even with this house you couldn't even be fair with that, well it's all yours now and you won't have to see the Lawyer anymore.

I wish you would you give my personal things to Danny, you couldn't get much from selling them anyway, you still have my insurance, it isn't much but it will be enough to take care of my debts and still have a few bucks left.

You always told me that I was the one that made Sharon take her life, in fact you said I killed her, but you know down deep in your heart it was you that made her do what she did, and now you have two deaths to your credit, it should make you feel very proud.

Good By Kid

P.S. Disregard all the mean things I've said in this letter, I have said a lot of things to you I didn't really mean and I hope you get well and wish you the best of everything.

Cathy -- don't come in.

Call your mother, she will know what to do.

Love

Daddy

Cathy don't go in the bedroom.

http://www.well.com/~art/suicidenotes.html